陷入人生低潮

这两天得了手足口症，得乖乖的呆在家里。朋友们都开玩笑的说，我以为这种病小孩子才会中的，您怎么会被感染到？我只能说不知道，可能是我倒霉吧。后来到网上看了一下资料，才发现原来这种病是没有药物可以医治的，怪不得医生怎么样都不肯开药给我敷。这种病跟水痘的不同之处是它不是很痒，但会痛，因为小红点都是长在手掌和脚底，碰到地面时就会有点不舒服。还有一个地方也会痛，因为那是最容易被细菌感染的地方。

回到主题，这几个月的事物让我陷入了我这25年来的人生低潮。
1. 大哥失业一年了
2. 钱
3. 事业

还是写英文比较好，会写得比较快。

I guess my bro is on the brink of giving up in finding employment, and wil slip into mild depression if this continues.. his temper is getting bad to worse, and i am tryin to avoid him as much as i can, thus i started to stay over at apple's house more..

As for money, i guess it's becuz 我太懦弱了, facing the fren who owed me money yet cant get back wat i wan.. seeing her at the office everyday jus reminds me of the bad tings i experienced during all these yrs.. how i hv to scrimp and save every cent, and tink thrice on the tings i want.. and her, stil continued with her normal lifestyle.. 我真的放不下，放不下这口气，为什么她就不能想到我的感受...

Career wise - i decide to give up. this is not i reli want. i realised i hv changed, changed to another person - someone so negative and unhappy.. this is not me.. where is the bubbly and cheerful side of me tat ppl known me in my prev employments? my ex-colleagues were commenting tat they can feel tat i hv changed.. why dun i joke nowadays.. frankly speaking, 在公司里，i have tat kind of 皮笑肉不笑 feeling.. i finally noe how is it like, no matter how funny it is..

tat day went out with PL and LL they all, i reli enjoyed it, cuz i am reli laughin from the bottom of my heart, which i reli missed.. and talking normally - bickering with LL reli makes my day and hearing PL complaining in her unique-princessy manner.

i stil prefer to work in a noisy environment, talkin craps.. the reason i remained quiet now cuz i noe the culture dun let craps in.. different culture.. everytime i say a crap out, ppl cant get the ball, and questioned wat i am referrin which i felt "hurt".. and the freedom to do tings my way, not totally free, at least not to the extent tat ppl wil tell u - no, tat is not the way.. do u understand wat we wan? YES, i dun understand.. but i understand i reli dun like it.. this environment is too serious for me to be.. (someone said i'm too serious at work) actually it's not me wan to be serious, but is bcuz i cant fit myself in, thus u tink i am serious.. sorry, i cant meet ur expectations.. i wil leave.. but pls let me stay after cny, cuz i hope to give my parents hongbao this yr.. at least let me hv abit more money b4 i leave..

actually there are not many ppl i trust now, after "betrayed" by my very gd fren.. left with apple who is always there for me - thou sometimes we are stil "grinding" out our differences (but small issue la).. he is the only one who listens to my nagging, holding my hands in times of trouble.. 他是我人生的方向，引导着我应该向哪里走.. yest he said sth tat i was touched which i seldom wil get this from him - "u r the best tat happen to me".. we will continue with our yap-ish style of relationship.. stop givin ur comments, cuz u r not us.. we noe how to find our happiness de.. thk you all for ur concern.. and thk u CC, it's bcuz of u, i understand other ppl is other ppl.. bcuz u r very xin fu now too with your style of relationship.. if u can do it, i can too..