Numbed...

Jus finished a long chat with Kok Thiam, felt somehow beta after expressin my tots n feelings out to him.. Kok Thiam very funny, oways think tat I very stressed over work or everything.. Haha.. Aiya, somethin so serious as depression I can overcome liao, this one small case la.. If I'm very stressed, I'll sound very despo.. Tat's me..

Some things tat happened ard me made me felt numbed abt some things.. So tat's y now I jus concentrate on doin/finishin wat I supposed to do n not get involved in other things unnecessarily, (so tat I wun get stabbed unneccesarily too) n oso to watch out for my butt.. When I'm numbed over some things, this is my reaction towards them.. But some things I wun get numbed is being the kpo (hahaha), I'll help those ppl that deserved my help only, cuz think I'm too gd liao, gd to take advantage of.. Must noe how to think at times liao..

This wk had been quite a fun wk cuz got Harry, Zhilong they all workin together.. Very fun & "adventurous" cuz it had been a long time since I met ppl so ON as them, somehow motivated me to work too.. Clearing the rollcages/goods within a specific timing, talkin craps n laughin till stomach almost cramped.. Must cherish this kind of wonderful moments cuz we always say "Keep in touch", but in the end we, ourselves noe it best tat we will seldom keep in touch.. "This is life, dun ever think abt how life will be in future, but always r'ber at this moment of life, we have met someone or did something memorable tat will stay in our memory forever, no matter where we go in future..." Thus I treated friendship as my No.1 in my list, I can do anythin for the sake of friendship, but tat reli have to depends on who cuz some ppl r jus makin use of us only.. Frankly speakin, till date, I only almost did everything for them towards 3 - 4 ppl, cuz they reli deserved it, but if they r makin use of me, den jus too bad lor, cuz it takes alot of trust & mutual understanding to build a firm & sturdy friendship, if they wan to destroy it, let it be lor.. I had seen so much of such cases, so I can say I'm numbed of it liao.. Haha.. Tat's me... Lots of philosophies of mine.. I can come up with plenty of quotes everyday..