As usual, it had been a long time since I update this blog of mine.. During these few weeks, quite a number of things happened.. Let me recollect the things tat happened, startin from e most recent one..
Jus came back home abt 45 mins ago after walkin all the way home from BM with KT.. Along the way, we chatted alot of things as usual....work, friends, bgr n so on.. Reli enjoyed talkin with him, or rather he is someone who can reli tahan my nagginess.. Wondered how will my days like without someone like him in future..
Another favorite boy of mine gone again after Harry & ZL.. Wei Kok.. Haiz~ No one for me to eat his tofu liao.. Though I din get to know him long, but he has been a very gd companion of mine whenever I work e same shift as him, esp afternoon.. He will wait for me n accompany me to the bus stop, talkin lots of craps along the way.. n durin the days tat I was very down, he had been quite supportive of me, though he seemed so heck care.. Sometimes the way he talked n his thinkin, doesnt seemed to me that he is only 17.. He will be another person I will reli miss after Harry n ZL.. I reli appreciate his support n accompaniment all these days..
Went back to bendemeer sec yest with Michelle.. Not much changes in the school, but rather the changes in the teachers.. They have reli aged alot since the last time we went back to visit them.. Time reli flies, it had been 6 yrs since we graduated from there.. As usual, I din do much of the talkin, stil as quiet jus like last time.. Mayb I always talkative at the wrong time.. Haha..
It's gettin late n my eyes are getting smaller n smaller.. Will update again when I got e time n mood.. Good Nitez!
Friday, March 17, 2006
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Did You Know??
Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?
Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?
Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:
I love you, Sorry and help me
Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves? Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?
Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?
Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?
Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?
Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?
Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.
But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself, if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned, and you know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two-fold.
Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?
Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:
I love you, Sorry and help me
Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves? Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?
Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?
Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?
Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?
Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?
Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.
But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself, if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned, and you know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two-fold.
Friday, March 03, 2006
no subject
Yest went out with my best pal for dinner, n shun bian tell her all my things.. Tink she's e only one who has e full content of wat was I goin thru all along.. Or rather we r similar in some ways ba.. Last time she was e one who was sufferin, n now it's my turn.. Our roles switched.. Reli have to thank her alot all these days, she was with me thru e ups n downs.. but in e end, tink she failed jus like I failed in consoling her back then.. Let me see, she took almost a yr before she gave up on him n somehow back to normal, will I be usin tat long to do e same too? Pray hard tat I'll be takin a shorter time than her.. Been finding consolation fr frens, hopin tat I can clear my mind faster n go back to e happy go lucky me soon..
Today is my offday, duno wat can I do leh.. See how ba.. Mayb I'll go wandering on e streets again ba.. I prefer loneliness or mayb I'm used to it all these yrs.. I looked very happy-go-lucky on e surface, but deep down in my heart, it is very dark....so dark tat I oso gotten a shock at it....I craved for warmth, love n concern... No one will be able to understand wat r e probs tat i had been thru bcuz 家家有本难念的经, everyone oso have their own kind of probs.. We were trained to be numbed at e probs tat we faced, n see n treat life simply.. But we were also forced to grow up rapidly n taught to tink alot further cuz we will have to plan ahead in case of emergencies.. For me, I reli feel like behavin like a child, something I have lost while I'm growing up.. But when I behaved like a child, most of e time wat I received was criticism n comments tat I was immatured.. n only wen i'm with ppl close to me, den I'll b able to do so.. friends have always been e biggest drive in my life as compared to my family, bcuz I found peace n serenity in them...thus some ppl r quite surprised tat how cum i can do so much for a fren, n they tot I liked tat person.. Haha.. but ppl will grow up one day, they will want to get involved in other things like go to some happening places, n oso get attached, which I chose to be alone wen I see them attached.. It's only until recently tat my frens keep askin me to get attached, dun get my inferiority or lack of self confidence delay it.. I oso tot it's time for me to find one.. but jus too bad, some happiness are short-lived.. I was once loved (or rather I felt I was), for a very short period of time, whereby i chose to give up in e end cuz I was totally a different person before n after, I din wan to give e other party too much pressure n probably he felt being tied down.. e withdrawal symptoms r terrible, n i've been tryin hard to divert it thru work or wat.. but lucky to say is that I din let this matter affect my work, mayb bcuz I'm back to singlehood n i'm able to think as a single individual...able to see things clearly again... It's only after work or when I'm alone den I'll start thinkin again.. Flashes of the memories jus pop up n I felt a tinge somewhere.. Mayb I had committed too much in it, n now I wan to withdraw fr it, it reli need to take a lot of efforts n time to do so ba.. Tink e other party oso gotten a shock ba.. or rather he din expect tat I committed so much ba.. Jus a wild guess.. My trait again...tink too much...I loved thinkin cuz it makes ur mind turn, but it oso make ur mind strain..n create unneccessary stress fr it... Alot of things are avoidable, jus tat ppl like to tink too much, n when things doesnt turn out their way, they will get very frustrated..n it's only tat wen they cleared their mind, den they realised tat e fault doesnt lies with anyone, but themselves.. In the whole process, i felt tat I had lost 2 frens, but I duno whether is it true or is it tat I tink too much again?
Today is my offday, duno wat can I do leh.. See how ba.. Mayb I'll go wandering on e streets again ba.. I prefer loneliness or mayb I'm used to it all these yrs.. I looked very happy-go-lucky on e surface, but deep down in my heart, it is very dark....so dark tat I oso gotten a shock at it....I craved for warmth, love n concern... No one will be able to understand wat r e probs tat i had been thru bcuz 家家有本难念的经, everyone oso have their own kind of probs.. We were trained to be numbed at e probs tat we faced, n see n treat life simply.. But we were also forced to grow up rapidly n taught to tink alot further cuz we will have to plan ahead in case of emergencies.. For me, I reli feel like behavin like a child, something I have lost while I'm growing up.. But when I behaved like a child, most of e time wat I received was criticism n comments tat I was immatured.. n only wen i'm with ppl close to me, den I'll b able to do so.. friends have always been e biggest drive in my life as compared to my family, bcuz I found peace n serenity in them...thus some ppl r quite surprised tat how cum i can do so much for a fren, n they tot I liked tat person.. Haha.. but ppl will grow up one day, they will want to get involved in other things like go to some happening places, n oso get attached, which I chose to be alone wen I see them attached.. It's only until recently tat my frens keep askin me to get attached, dun get my inferiority or lack of self confidence delay it.. I oso tot it's time for me to find one.. but jus too bad, some happiness are short-lived.. I was once loved (or rather I felt I was), for a very short period of time, whereby i chose to give up in e end cuz I was totally a different person before n after, I din wan to give e other party too much pressure n probably he felt being tied down.. e withdrawal symptoms r terrible, n i've been tryin hard to divert it thru work or wat.. but lucky to say is that I din let this matter affect my work, mayb bcuz I'm back to singlehood n i'm able to think as a single individual...able to see things clearly again... It's only after work or when I'm alone den I'll start thinkin again.. Flashes of the memories jus pop up n I felt a tinge somewhere.. Mayb I had committed too much in it, n now I wan to withdraw fr it, it reli need to take a lot of efforts n time to do so ba.. Tink e other party oso gotten a shock ba.. or rather he din expect tat I committed so much ba.. Jus a wild guess.. My trait again...tink too much...I loved thinkin cuz it makes ur mind turn, but it oso make ur mind strain..n create unneccessary stress fr it... Alot of things are avoidable, jus tat ppl like to tink too much, n when things doesnt turn out their way, they will get very frustrated..n it's only tat wen they cleared their mind, den they realised tat e fault doesnt lies with anyone, but themselves.. In the whole process, i felt tat I had lost 2 frens, but I duno whether is it true or is it tat I tink too much again?
有的事情一旦错过
就不会再回到你的身边
我现在真的明白这句话的意思了
现在已经太晚了
我只有等待，因为我不想再伤心了
让时间来冲淡这一切
让时间来带走这一切
(extract fr somewhere over e internet)
Found that this entry is kinda long.. It's time to end it liao.. Let me end it with a song I liked very much recently..
彩虹天堂 - 刘耕宏
我不知不觉 又徘徊在从前
秋风悄悄的呼唤 听来尽是孤单
落叶的期盼 片片左右为难
心走寂寞攀 跟著飘进黑暗
我不闻不问 也许好过一点
被遗憾关在房间 挣扎只是拖延
无望的空谈 一声声的轻叹
回忆扯不断 怎麼摆脱纠缠
找不到方向 往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱 在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人 相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
找不到方向 往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱 在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人 相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光 有你在我身旁
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