Today...

Happiness + Contention… Can consider quite a fruitful day today bcuz I gotten a car ride home… This is the 2nd time I gotten a car ride home this yr, bcuz usually I gotten van rides, not car rides… Cant say I’m materialistic, but I jus like the feelin of being the passenger in a car, as compared to sittin a van… The feelin is totally different, yet I jus duno how to describe it… The last time I gotten a car ride is abt a couple of wks ago fr aloy, but even thou it’s a car, but stil not so shiok as this time, mayb bcuz his is a family car (so not much different to him drivin a van, jus tat more comfy only)…

Start of my story… duno y m I feelin kinda moody today, yet I cant describe wat’s wrong with me… I’m not troubled over anything, but jus felt confused deep in my heart… it seemed like there are many things goin thru my mind, yet I cant make any complete piece from it… Jus feel like goin out n have some fresh air, mayb lookin at the sea or wat, but too bad, it was raining in the late afternoon… but the intention of goin out din change, I stil wan to go out n walk walk abit, cuz it’s my offday tml… den tot of a fren tat I din meet up for some time, n mayb it’s time to do some catchin up before I leave the country…

Met up with Huijie n chatted up abit while walkin ard jur pt… I realized the cause of my moodiness is mayb I’m leavin this place in another 4 mths or so… for me, to leave this place is rather easy as I had more or less cleared most of my burdens, but wat I reli cant bear is my frens here… the kind of friendship tat I had built up thru these yrs with some of them… n if I’m reli bent of stayin there, I can say for sure, it will be another 3 – 5 yrs before I come back here… gain the experience n expertise… tat’s kinda long…

Out of a sudden, every view n scene looked precious to me… they looked as if I wun get to see them again… the emotions jus came to me… but I came to accept the fact tat it’s all abt oppt cost… life is all abt forgoin one thing for another… u hv to weigh wat u wan n need in ur life… for me, havin the chance to venture out n live alone is a gd oppt, but I need to give up quite a lot of tings in my comfort zone here… but no matter wat, I’m the one who made the choice, I must be able to accept the consequences… rite?

Back to the pt… was kinda surprised wen HJ suggested to send me home cuz he’s stil not familiar with the roads here n it’s oredi so late… but was kinda excited to sit in his car, cuz like I say, I seldom get rides home in a car… he is one of my closer ones among all my part time “boyfriends” thou we knew each other thru friendster… mayb this is called fate lor… I’m reli fortunate to have him as a fren as he is reli a very caring n thoughtful fren… he is there when u need hm to rely on… n I’ve learnt tings from him too… I guessed he will be one of the frens tat I wil miss wen I go there…

Conclusion: I grew up a little more bit le… *lame* haha… but as usual, I wil stil say tat my heart is temporarily closed until I settled down in my work or whatever tat need to be done… bgr doesn’t reli matters to me much now (I swear), instead I should cherish my numbered days with my precious frens here, catchin up with them, getting as many free rides fr them as I can *HAHAHA*, n savin all the sceneries in my little brain…

Motto of the day: Always look on the bright side of life n live happily… be truthful to urself n one will not live with regrets… *gambatte!*