..sadded..

Today is a day where all emotions came to overcome me, n alot of thoughts came into my mind, which pushes me to write this blog.. Have an urge to cry, but I didnt.. In the end, I guess I didnt have the courage to let apple noe abt this verbally..

.....my last day in fp

I didnt shed a single tear today, bcuz I didnt wan them to see me cry.. I came here happily, thus I wana leave here happily too.. I was very upset, bcuz I had gained many knowledge, frens n experience there.. many gd n bad memories there.. we are just like one big family.. I loved them as my family..

.....inferiority strikes me again..

I was told tat my grandma was diagnosed with diabetes last nite.. upon hearin, I was kinda accepting, but I knew the same old prob wil come back again.. the internal affairs.. something I always hated.. something I am very sick of.. something tat I had always kept a blind eye to it.. money issue within e family.. as my grandma wil require medicine n treatment, takin care of her n money became an issue.. someone suggested hirin a maid to take care of her, bt my uncle actually said this: who dare to hire maid, den tat family hv to take her home, bcuz everyone treated her as a "trouble".. now they r suggestin to send her to a daycare centre or old folk's home, n e siblings wil hv to share.. n I knew they sure r calculative abt the money.. everyone started to list out their difficulties n blah blah blah, tryin to siam..

there are so much more to be touched on, but I'm not in the mood to continue..