unhappy

yest apple asked me y am i unhappy lately? i tink probably i am gettin sick and tired over sth..

i reli hope we could have more "we-time" instead of "everyone-else time", but it is not working..

everything we planned jus dun come out as the end results.. this is not expectations, jus sudden disruptions.

makin me losing faith in the words he said - becoming "听听就好".

we communicated, he said noted, but i felt he stil dun get it. i could feel he felt tat i am getting more complicated wen i told him what i observed. tensions in the relationships.

i always asked him if there's anything to feedback - he said no, bcuz it's enough as long as i am by his side. yes, i am happy to be by him too, but there are always too many external factors affecting us, or rather me. there are so many tings i need to factor in wen we are doing tings, bcuz i noe tings wil not turn out the way we wan.

and sometimes wen tings are related to his close ones, it makes me even harder to “做人”. who am i to comment on this? i dun wan to hurt him, neither i wan to put him in a spot and lead him to frustrations.

my morale is fallin - i am a lousy gf/poor communicator/gal with lots of requests and etc.