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Was reading thru some of my blogs, den started wondering wat is the reason tat I blog? To show off something? To tell the whole wide world my tings? Or wat? But I take writing blogs as a form of expressing my deepest thoughts, desires, dreams, and as my “gd fren”… Ever since my closest fren went into “disappearing” act, I was practically lookin for another source to say out things tat is botherin me, bcuz it’s a different kind of trust towards different frens… the biggest hit wil be the one tat came from my closest fren, I gave her my best help when she needed it, but when I needed the favor back urgently, she wasn’t able to, n it left me with more troubles… the super negative point for being too nice?

Ppl around me were telling me not to be too nice to ppl, cuz it doesn’t pay, last time I may not agree, but now I may have to agree… some ppl r jus too much, they take ur kindness for granted, n not appreciative… I reli dun understand something, or I’m stil not matured enough to understand… takin for an example, is it a habitual ting to tink of ideas and ask ppl to do it, no matter whether are u willin or not, jus bcuz tat person tink tat u wil definitely do it? N when u rejects it, tat person started to bear a grudge n tink tat u r being too much? Or after u had accepted it reluctantly, but couldn’t make it to the meeting due to some reasons, the person started to blame u for putting aeroplane n gets angry with u? I bet most ppl had met with this kind of situation, no matter u r “the person” or the “U”… for me, I had always been the “U” most of the time, tat sometimes I was reli sick of being this role… there were times tat I was tinkin, y cant I be the evil one? But the answer is, I cant and I dun wan to be one… or rather can I say, I can be one given tat I know who is the other party tat I’m talking with… it's reli hard to be the bad role if the other party is not willin to take a step back.. so juz keep quiet and get on with my life.. haiz..