Updates after Missing in Action..

Dear readers, got miss me? Hehe.. (Provided I have readers to my blog..) It had been a long time since I updated my blog, at most only drop some articles that I found on net.. It's time for me to update as the year is coming to an end soon..

Year 2007 had been an eventful year for me bcuz some changes came to my life and I made some changes too..

I ended my 29 months in fairprice, rotted for abt 2.5 mths before I engaged myself in a new work environment (Community Chest under National Council of Social Service).. Though I have joined the company for almost a mth, I'm still in the stage of getting used to everything as it's reli a totally different environment.. There used to be so many staff under me, now I'm the lowest among the others.. Felt abit small initially bcuz ppl of my age who got the qualifications are of a higher post than me, n moreover I'm doing alot of admin work - kind of no challenge at all.. BUT I believed, given my capabilities, I will be able to handle more impt projects in the near future..

It's kinda 舍不得 to leave fairprice, afterall I have spent my "growing up" years there, n there are so many beautiful memories tat I had left behind, getting to know so many people from all walks of life and background, but I really have to go bcuz we should always look ahead, n I stil have a long road ahead of me.. It's time for me to get interacted with different types of environment and ppl.. Next is I'm a little bit sick of tat kind of lifestyle, having to forfeit PH/offdays (thou it can be very fun during these days), mayb it's time to look for a stable job.. "Putting Down the Past, and Moving On to the Future.."

Another thing to update is probably abt things between me and apple.. I am "honored" to say tat things have been progressing well till now, especially during this month.. I wun touch on the story between us, bcuz it will be super long-winded and will sound abit too dramatic.. Thou we are stil of "unknown" status, but I can say tat we are "somewhere there" to the next stage.. Til now, I stil find it abit hard to digest the fact tat both of us will land up together, bcuz this is sth tat I never given a thought before, probably jus fantacising abt having a guy like him.. (Mayb it's fated tat we will meet in our lifetime..?)

From being jus a big bro to me when I first knew him, to a pillar to lean on when I needed most, and to someone whom I cared for now, this series of events is something tat I would never dream of.. I hv absolute no answer to when he started to have feelings for me, neither do I noe when I started to hv feelings for him too.. (interesting, rite?) Mayb like wat he said tat day, the feeling jus grew gradually..

For the past 6 mths, it can be considered as the most "obvious' period, whereby we could see something is going on, but it is oso a period full of uncertainties and confirmations for me.. Mayb bcuz of prev. experience, I'm tend to be more careful this time round, n consulted alot of guy frens for their opinions n analysis.. I heard both pros n cons from my frens, which at one pt of time, I was tinkin tat wil history repeats itself bcuz thou I might appear strong on the outside, I'm rather weak when it comes to matters of the heart as I am scared of being hurt again.. If tings doesnt turn out well this time, I'm afraid tat I wil totally lose hope in bgr..

Was reading thru my calender in my hp, where I wrote lots of notes b4 I went to slp each nite, and I realised tat I am reli a "tink too much" person, yet I jus cant kick away my habit.. There are many sweet memories written in it, n everytime I read, it jus refreshes my mind and bring me back to the day tat the event happened.. There was a period of time where I felt like givin up on the "unknown" status, as it looked very stagnant, n due to the reason tat we r both "shy", we din touch on much topics abt ourselves.. And some frens ard me were tellin me to give up/learnt to love myself more/stop wasting ur youth waiting & alot more.. But I jus one ear go in and let it digest in my mind.. Thou I can be abit conflicting in my words n actions, I stil understand myself beta than others.. I noe tat if I were to step in further, I will scare of being hurt, if I step out, I will not bear to give up on tat r'ship.. In the end, I chose to listen to my heart n follow wat I feel rite to do..

Luckily and fortunately, I did not do anything silly, n proved that my waiting din come to a waste.. Thou I stil dun reli understand of the sudden progress between us this month, but I can sense that it is a gd start.. I could see him puttin more efforts in, such as bringing me to more places around his place rather than jus the regular ones.. Especially the trip to the temple on xmas day which I realised one ting tat I am attracted to him.. It's tat kind of seriousness/devotion in something tat I saw his "charming" side.. Other than tat, we can be considered as the "cute" gang, cuz we find each other cute in some ways.. I personally tink tat I'm cute in my silly-ness n stupid-ness.. Haha.. As for him, he is cute in his ways which have too many to describe..

It might sound as if I'm sayin aloud tat I have found my Prince Charming finally, but in fact it's not the case, as this r'ship is actually a surprise one, something tat I din expect.. One more thing, no one is perfect, and this applies to the both of us.. Our story behind is similar to a fairytale, yet realistic enough to happen in real life.. I duno wat lies ahead for the both of us, but I noe it will take alot of efforts and barriers for the both of us to overcome in the near future, given tat each of us have different personalities n characteristics..

Last paragraph is meant for Mr. Bear if u happen to see this.. I noe it's best to love myself more so that I can love others, but I got my own definition from this phrase.. the way tat I love myself is by listening to what my heart says, in this case, I chose to love someone.. I saw ur blog, and this is my two cents' worth of comment.. Listen to wat ur heart tells u to do/follow.. Dun purposely suppress ur feelings towards the gal u mentioned in the blog.. wat for making ur conscious and sub-conscious mind fighting each other? why make urself feel so difficult in the situation.. I may not be able understand from ur plight as every one has a different story behind.. Jiayou my fren..