Feb 13, 2009 - "black friday"

This year vday falls on a saturday, which means friday is on the 13th, which commonly referred as "black friday"..

On this friday, I attended a company dinner of apple at fullerton hotel.. This is not the first time I went to a place related to fullerton with apple.. The first time was back in almost 3.5 yrs ago, wen I was being "invited" to drink red wine with him and his fren at ONE fullerton, but this time is special.. bcuz it is a dream that I had always wanted to fulfill..

As a fantasy-filled gal, I had always yearned to come to that area with my loved one, for a romantic walk, tat would be a great thing.. And I had my wish fulfilled.. After being with apple for years, I agar agar noe wat his likings are, and I usually wun try my luck in askin for tings tat have a low possibility of happening.. apple have a short memory, so he might agreed to my requests wen i asked him, but after tat he might forget liao, and i dun like to remind him on those request, but on the other hand, I knew I was disappointed.. so as time goes by, I try not to raise any requests to avoid disappointments, and it reduces expectations too.. (except for reli special ones)

Frankly speaking, there are soooo many tings tat I wished I could have, but I cant be selfish and greedy, and made him to do wat i wished for the sake of doin.. yes, it would have made me happy, but at the same time, i will feel bad bcuz the real meaning of doing it is not there.. sometimes things have to be done voluntarily, and not by frequent requests.. And especially, I have a "feel bad" heart, i wil feel bad at the slightest ting tat I felt had direct/indirect affect the ppl ard me, and wil try to make up for them..

Back to the topic, fullerton/boat quay/clarke quay is one of the areas tt i thought "how nice/great it would be" if i could come here and have a stroll with my loved one.. After dinner, we had a short stroll along the river and came to another "romantic" place but was kinda disappointed.. the clarke quay tat i saw last time was so romantic, but now it was too crowded to be considered romantic.. but at least the walk was a fulfilling one.. *slip it in one of the slots of precious memories*

Actually wanted to slowly walk home from there, but apple was dead tired, it's beta to get going early.. i managed to pass my small token - cornflakes cookies to him.. it was a total crash course and sudden decision to do the cookies as time is not on my side.. i had told him tat i wun be givin him anythin, but i stil feel tat sth has to be given and with a gd meaning.. i had no time to shop for meaningful gift, and i dun wan to spend alot of $$ cuz i had been tellin him to have cheap dates - save the money to clear our future debts.. it's the thought and significance tat counts.. even the simplest cookie doesnt prove to be easy, my hands were slightly steamed by the heating process..

While chasin for the bus, apple accidentally bumped onto a metal bar, and i could see tat it hurts.. a short journey on the bus let me see alot of tings.. his tired look, painful reaction, the lines on his face and the white hairs on his head.. duno whether is it bcuz of the red wine or the effects of being in love, it jus made me felt bad to see these.. must always keep him in happy mode, so tat he wun tink so much and age faster.. hehe..

ok.. here comes the end of the day.. it's at my lift lobby and the time to part again (i have always hated this), and i tink it's time to tell him a "shy" secret.. hmm.... normally we wil bade goodbye with a kiss, but it's always a short one.. and though it is a short one, my heart will always beat very fast and have tat kind of "electrocuted" feeling which i wished the kiss could be longer abit more.. but i dare not say, cuz i'm quite reserved in this aspect to talk abt such tings.. so i managed plucked up my courage and told him this secret.. and i got another of my wish fulfilled - i had a gd and nice experience.. hehe.. felt so contented and wonderful.. great memories for this yr vday though it's a real simple one..

*afternote: i hv the tendency to dream of apple, and i had another long and continuous dream abt us again.. hmm.. tink i had reli sunk too deep inside of apple..