love-hate r'ship with apple

for the sensitivity of an action, certain word would be changed to "pok pok".. haha..

nowadays, my greatest happiness come from seeing apple and getting pok pok.. and yest is one day i get to see him and pok pok.. oh no, i'm so addicted to him.. cant imagine the withdrawal symptoms if we cant meet for a longer time than usual.. hehe..

hmm.. i reli loved the way apple pok pok me, and each time i wished it could be longer.. it's an enjoyment to be pok pok by someone i truly loved.. and pok pok was one ting i disliked, felt so disgusted back then, and suffering from a short period of nightmare.. mayb i shouldnt be sayin this again, cuz it shouldnt be.. but my greatest relief was that i din drag and carry on with 77, or i tink i wouldnt be with apple or another guy now..

back to the pok pok part.. i always looked forward to it, duno y.. it jus got me so high and excited.. the electrocuted feeling.. so immersed in the environment until he stops.. but man are greedy.. hoping to be a little bit more.. i was telling apple yest tat if i stil got the electrocuted feeling, means i stil liked u alot, if not, means i dun like u.. this was wat happened back then.. i only got a few short excited moments back then, and the subsequent few were fearful - i even thought it was bcuz i dun hv experience in it, now i know why..

though i had been repeating this, it's a great experience to be apple, deeply fond of him.. even though sometimes the tings he does can be very "the", this is where the 'hate' part.. he is so cute and yet so 'the' at the same time.. but i stil like him many many.. hehe.. beautifully imperfect.. our imperfectness complement one another to form perfectness..

*ohh~ stil cant forget the pok pok moment til now.. beautiful and sweet..

first week back at work

basically a terrible week..
saw the darkest side of human..
fell sick again, but dare not take mc again..
was super pissed wen i heard some comments..
felt tat i shld leave, i mus leave this sickening place..
mayb i haven seen enough, but this is the worst form of 'politics' tat i had seen..
it's not abt 'jus do ur work, n dun care abt some other tings'..
sometimes it's none of ur biz, yet u were being dragged into the situation..
mayb i shldnt come to this place in the first place, cuz it's a big mismatch..
yet i shld be glad tat i came here, to see how scary tings can be..
stil waiting for my patience and tolerance to reach its limit..
i wun hesitate even i noe i'm on big losing end and given wat's goin on ard me..

Takin a break

Takin a 10mins break from doin projs now, so thot of bloggin..
Went to visit my sick apple yest illegally again..
It reli ached alot to see him suffer for the past week..
I was so worried wen he didnt reply/send me a msg as usual (suspect sth was wrong)..
I couldnt slp at all despite doin my proj until dawn on fri..
My instinct told me tat he had went to hospital..
I waited until noon time den i gave him a call..
He sounded so blur tat I almost couldnt figure out wat was he sayin..
And unknowingly, there was a fear of losing him (stupid rite?)
I had never liked a guy as much as i do now, and mayb tat's y i have tat feeling..
He is like a family to me, or even closer than my own family, my world spins around me..
Think i am too madly in love with this apple liao..

sick apple

apple is sick again..
coughin non-stop the last time i went to visit him..
it hurts me to see him like tat..
and being sick made him even more quick-tempered..
hope he will get completely well soon..
missed him pinchin my nose and makin fun of me..
and i reli shouldnt have played tat prank on him..
i am tryin hard not to tink too much abt him, but the more i dun tink, the more i'm tinkin..
he asked me not to worry, yet i am stil worryin..
though i am not a devoted buddhist, pls pls pls bao you apple to recover fully..
i wan my cheerful and healthy apple back..