Damn Upset Day - 090905

Yest was a heart-wrenching day, can see tears everywhere, those who showed it, and oso for those swallowed it.. Finally it's time tat Agnes n Jason left our branch liao.. Terrible.. All these events tat had happened within the last 2 wks had made some of us, including me reli wondered is this life? How come life likes to play a fool on us? Things does happen with a reason, I dun believe tat there's no reason behind Sunny n Agnes' transfers.. I dun buy the crap/reason tat was given to me.. At first when I came to this line, I was full of fear cuz I duno will I be able to adapt to this job? Den wen I reli catch a hold of something, I was thinking this is a gd place to work in, very fun n challengin bcuz of the ppl ard here.. BUT the cruelty came within these few weeks, tat ppl are transferring out.. WTF!! damn it.. Jus like wat Jason said, what we can do?

Now without so many ppl, or rather pillars of supports, I will be on my own though there's stil Jiawen, Cheryl n the young ones, but these things has bring down our morale so much tat I reli wondered is this the place tat we can stay.. n i'm startin to get pressure fr 2 ppl, I'll have to prove myself if not I'll in deep shit.. Will we suffer the fate of being transferred one day if our performance doesnt reach branch standards or other rules n reg? I told myself or Jiawen that if one day, if he or cheryl were to leave, n the young ones go to study, tat's will be the end.. Either I leave this job n pursue my dream, or I apply for a transfer to a branch where a fren is around.. This is reli childish thinking, but no choice, all these are caused by something..

Breaking Down 020905

i finally broke down again yest nite after hearing tat dramatic news in the afternoon.. i tot tat was the worst, but it wasnt.. today i heard the worst.. there was a change in something.. a change tat i think i will break down many times during this period.. ok, i'm childish, i'm a weakling, i'm lousy.. i jus cant cope with all these changes.. i didnt cry tat time during sunny's last day, i tot i had got over it n will not cry again wen i heard such news again..

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.sad.sad.sad.
tml is the last day tat sunny will be at the branch with us. i wonder will i be a crybaby anot ar? mayb like wat my fren said, i'm a weakling, i jus cant control myself n i refuse to face the truth. sianz ar. feel like scolding vulgar language but cannot leh. haiz~ getting a little hysterical over the things tat r happenin ard me. work is one, family life is another. though we should always look on the bright side of life, we cant always deceive ourselves. how long can i lie to myself? one day? one mth? one yr? or forever?

I Cried 130805

Today is the most embarassing day cuz I actuali cried at the branch.. It's all bcuz of Sunny n ... Jason. Sunny is definitely goin, n when I called him up in the afternoon to ask more, he sounded so calm, as if nth had happened.. Tat made me so upset.. Thinkin the days tat I bickered at him, the days we talked abt other ppl's gossips, the days when I first came, the things he taught me, n many many things, reli made me felt so "guilty".. Mayb I'm more emotional ba.. I reli cant stand it..

The next person is Jason.. Think he is leaving together with Sunny too, maybe to start a branch of his own somewhere.. So it's only another 15 days to see them.. Haiz~ Y like tat? I hate it, I hate it n I Hate IT!! So many ppl leavin at one go, I reli cant stand it.. Y?! Y?! Y?! I heard tat there'll probably a third person leaving too.. Cannot like tat la.. Hope tat I can have a transfer after CNY.. to Jason's branch.. (dream on!)

Must cherish the beautiful memories now, if not, the chances of us seein again is possible, but it will get lesser n lesser as time goes on.. haiz~