2nd Date..

Jus came back fr a so-called 2nd date (with the same guy whom I went out with last week) not long ago.. Went to watch Die Hard 4.0.. Not a bad show.. It had been a long time since I watched 2 movies for 2 consecutive wks.. But lucky this time round, it's free as I have tickets to it.. Hehe..

After thoughts... Thou knowing him for less than 2 wks, but he let me realised alot of tings... n I was tellin him straight on my way home... If back in the past, if we were to continue goin out like this, i might fell for him, bcuz he can be quite thoughtful... But too bad, after goin thru & seein the same ting again, jus made me realised tat I wun be tat silly to fall for a guy jus like tat.. I'm referring to my past exp with 77.. I fell for him too easily back in those days liao... not to mention wat tactics he used.. One more ting tat I'm glad with this fren is, we r rational n open enough to accept all kinds of rumors, as long as it is not too over.. or else we simply heck care.. haha.. Wat's wrong with going out with guys rite? I jus went out with another 2 of them yest, n got free rides.. *evil grin.. Haha..

This fren of mine came at the rite time, at least I tink tat is the case... To help me to sort out part of my confused thoughts, jus like my another fren.. I believe in one ting, some ppl simply jus appeared at the right place n right time to help u, thou wat they did was jus very minor tings, it may meant alot to the other party bcuz tings jus happen with a reason, n there's no need to ask y...

I was sharin another silly dream of mine with him jus now, with regards to my UK trip.. I was tellin him tat I'm stil hopin for some kind of "miracle" to happen, whereby someone appears in my life within the next 2 mths or so; someone who is able to love me, bcuz I had never be loved in a relationship-wise... I wanted to try tat, to experience the feeling of being loved by a guy truthfully... whereby the guy reli noe where to place u in his heart, n the significance of u in his life... A dream is stil a dream, or rather it is jus a foolish fantasy of mine, thou it's like lying to myself, I noe where is the limit... If the time reli comes for me to leave for UK, n tat special someone did not appear, I will accept the fact and leave... This is wat I had prepared myself for for the past few mths... But the above scenario wil be based on a case by case scenario, not any ah cat or ah dog comes by, I wil jus stay like tat.. (my airfare wil be gone jus like tat, I'm not tat stupid la..) I believe if the person is destined to appear, he wil definitely appear.. Enough of my stupid dream...

Recently alot of my frens celebrated their bday, tat reminds me of the pranks tat we had in our branch for our fellow colleagues.. Kinda envious of them.. bcuz my bday was always the "quietest" one... My 21st bday was celebrated very simply, givin some of them a treat at Suntec, den went to Boat Quay there, have a short drink n went back home.. on my 22nd, quite sad, but duno how to say.. Mayb my bday is always the last in the team, so it's very easy to be forgotten... Not tat I'm desperate to celebrate my bdays, instead I never have the habit of celebrating it, but frankly speaking, I am very envious when we were celebrating for the others... In the past, wen I was younger, I always wan to show off n let ppl noe my birthday, but it led to e dislike of me in them.. As time goes by, I jus kept quiet n act as normal, bcuz i dun see the pt of sayin it so loud tat it's my bday, but deep in my heart, I stil hope tat they wil remember it.. For those who remembered it, I reli very grateful n appreciate it bcuz I did not say it out, yet u all remember.. THANKS!! Back to the pt, probably this bday would be my last b4 I leave, thus another small dream of mine branches out... wil I be able to get the most memorable bday? this wil remain as a ??? til my bday.. Let's shall see abt it..

Time for me to continue my fantasy in dreamland..