First visit..

Yest was a "frightful" day....bcuz Apple came to my house for the very first time.. I couldn't slp well the previous nite cuz I was filled with alot of emotions..unhappiness (he din inform me earlier), anxiety (my house is in a mess), nervousness (no guy had ever come to my house), surprise (din expect him to come) & so on..

I was slightly distracted at work cuz I duno how tings wil go on.. but glad to say tat it's over.. Apple only met my mom cuz he came at a very late timing, so my dad and bro were asleep by then.. Can say that they r slightly unhappy abt him coming at this timing, but overall, tink my mom din say much abt him cuz she said ultimately, the choice left with me.. as long as he is sincere and we like each other, den they wun interfere much.. but my peers were worried tat i might get hurt (again) cuz they felt tat i seemed to have been giving in alot, and i may get cheated as i've very naive in such tings.. but they noe watever they said is no use, cuz at the end of the day, i wil give tat kind of answer tat they wan to vomit blood.. i only believe in myself.. even if i reli get hurt again (touchwood la..), i mustn't regret cuz i chose the path.. thus they can only tell me this, "must learn to love urself and protect urself.. come to us if u need a shoulder to lean on.."

Back to the topic.. i can vaguely remember my first visit to his house in late 2006 (such a pity tat i din note down the date).. can say i was being cheated to go, but oso cant say tat, cuz i went in willingly.. stil can remember wat happened tat day.. as usual, i met up with him near his house (there's a shoppin centre there), when he said tat he wana go up his house to take sth and his nephews are ard (tat was the 1st time i met his sis' family).. when we went up, i was kinda shy to go in cuz i nv went to a guy house b4 except goin to 77's house once.. his whole family were around unlike tat time i went to 77's house.. I felt very weird, but duno how to say.. his mom asked whether we had dinner, i said i had eaten abit, but she stil invited me to stay for dinner, den i....oblivious of anythin, jus say ok lor.. (abit stupid/naive, rite?)

I could felt the weird and tense atmosphere bcuz i had nv sat beside a guy for dinner, as in only the both of us.. n oso the presence of eyes lookin at us.. haha.. (mayb i tink too much..) the shy-est day in 2006 (bcuz i had more of such days in the later yrs..) we went walk walk after dinner..

I din take the first visit as a different meaning bcuz i had always tot it's normal to bring a fren of an opposite gender home (thou i hv never done so).. it was until my frens got to noe abt me, den told me the meaning of it.. and i was like, "huh, like tat meh..? reli ar..? but impossible leh.. u sure..?" --- the silly side of me, which ppl felt tat it's cute.. (???)

end of my frightful experience.. tink there are more to come.. haha.. watch out for my updates..