status promotion..?

a series of events happened lately...with regards to me n apple again..

went thru alot of "first time" tings.. *sweat ar~

firstly.. a dinner invite which i felt unusual (tink too much??) cuz normally he wil send me such msg only when there's a special occasion in the family, if not we wil jus go out n den mayb go his house for dinner.. he replied tat there's no special occasion, just a makan session.. the surprise came later wen i overheard tat they wil be goin to visit his grandma at her house.. reli not mentally prepared but stil hv to act calm.. haha.. felt abit out of place at his grandma's house, cuz tat was the first time i went to a guy's grandma's house.. lucky his cousin talked to me (she is a very sweet and nice gal..), askin me some questions abt me n him.. the most interestin part is wen she asked how come she din see me last cny despite we knew each other for almost 3 yrs..? he replied tat my status is different now, got promoted..??

secondly.. askin me to go bai nian together with his family this cny.. at first i tot he wun be askin me along bcuz of our unknown status.. was taken by surprise again cuz it will be my first time going to his relatives' house.. so i asked him to go to my side too.. (at first he agreed, but yest he declined cuz i tink he's not prepared yet..)

thirdly.. his abrupt decision to come to my house suddenly.. was filled with mixed emotions (anguish/surprise/anxiety/nervousness/confused) cuz it happened too sudden.. hmm.. but tat was the first time i brought a guy home, even though it's for a short while.. jus tat he came abit too late as most of my family members were asleep, so abit awkward for me la.. but overall, i guess he gave a quite ok impression ba..

forthly.. askin me to go on cruise with his family for the first time.. was hesitant initially bcuz i never went out with such a big family before (except my company retreat).. but later felt tat i should go, cuz it wil mean something.. n oso tat i never go for a cruise before.. hehe.. i was supposed to be at work for a big proj then, but i seeked permission from my boss to go (for the cruise), n she agreed (n of cuz i happy la).. i told him yest tat i can go, but rite now i tink i have to tell him i cant go, cuz my family have some considerations as both of us r stil not tat close to go for a trip together thou i will goin with his family.. guessed he wil be disappointed (jus like tat time wen i first told him i might not be able to go..)

lastly.. i went out with him on sun, along with two guy frens of his.. i knew his frens some time ago, jus tat we r not very close ba.. we were shoppin for tings n went for dinner after tat.. the start of another shock n surprise again.. he was talkin to his colleague over the phone, n he was talkin abt who were with him, n i heard he sayin tat he's eating with his frens n gf(???), my face was flushed red in an instant, but i tot i heard wrongly as the surrounding was abit noisy, so i jus shrugged it aside.. den we continued shoppin, n he got another call again.. tink he is not familiar with e area, so he said he wil pass the phone to his gf (???) for directions.. this time, i confirmed din hear wrongly.. shock and surprise.. i felt so hot again.. oh damn.. i kept my calmness again until we went on separate ways to home.. i asked him tat wen did i became his gf? he replied tat i dun wan to be his gf ar, den he come to my house for wat..? i said he din ask ma, n tat was the first time a guy addressed me as his gf.. *blushes* den he asked whether i wana be his gf, i din answer directly..

sidetrack abit.. i gotten two calls from my guy frens, askin me for advices/ideas for Vday, so i jus gave them my pt of view as usual (those r the tings tat i gave fr a pt of view of a gal..) den i was tellin him tat my frens called, n he said something tat kinda bothers me till now.. "男孩子应该吊起来卖".. this made me starting to wonder did he 吊起来卖 in our r'ship..? i reli dislike doin this, thus i did not 吊起来卖 wen my fellow frens were tellin me tat a gal should do tat, if not guys wil take u for granted.. but like i say to my frens always wen some tings bother me.. "heck care la.." -- i cant let these words bother me for too long.. but at the same time, if I ever get to know that he did, tink I wil get upset ba, cuz....?

conclusion.. can say tat i hv a proper status now, at least i need not have to live with an unknown status.. but i can only say tat i wil be rather careful in committing my feeling in, cuz i know how hard/bad can it be to withdraw from one (bt i wil hope this is the final one), unless the other party make enough efforts to do tings to give me a confirmed answer tat i can commit.. for now, i only can say tat a different kind of uncertainties lies in front of us.. i hope tat i can fight it by stayin strong to my beliefs.. but who wil be able to help me to stay strong to my beliefs..? ---> apple's actions..