March 1st..

a remarkable day.. bcuz i told myself tat i must pluck up my courage to hold his hands n give him a kiss (not a peck ar).. *lame~* haha..

we arranged to meet at suntec to go to the careerfair together.. durin our walk there, we happened to meet aloy.. (this is the first time he met any of my frens..) but the careerfair was a total disappointment, as there wasn't much for us to walk abt.. sianz~

den we proceed to hv our lunch at marina sq.. and his 3 female frens came to join us.. and they were askin this n that, n our story la.. haha.. this time let him say, i jus kept quiet.. haha.. his frens are very friendly, so at least not so awkward.. i shy ma.. hehe..

his frens said tat they wana go to funan centre, so we took the same underpath (citilink) together.. after we reached the mrt station, his frens mentioned sth interesting, 'is it bcuz of our presence, tat's y u two din hold hands?' den i was tinkin, 'not we dun wan to hold hands, it's bcuz we haven hold yet..' haha.. den one of his frens dragged me to one side, and asked me abt my hair, while the other 2 frens were talkin to him.. i wondered what did they say..? haha..

if only his frens din say tat, den i might feel beta.. bcuz like i mentioned earlier, i always have the temptations to hold his hands, but duno y, i jus cant bring myself to do it.. after hearin wat his frens said, the whole feelin got worse, cuz i was practically aiming his hands while we were at jur pt and on the way back to his house..

sidetrack abit.. i was in the room to look after his nephews who were playin games wen the younger one started to lean his head on me (he was not feelin well too), den i felt very 'sweet' cuz mayb i love kids ba.. haha.. and one more ting, i tink i'm reli scared of his temper, cuz he got angry at his nephews as they were abit naughty and mischievous.. hmm.. tink i must try to tame him down.. not gd in long term..

back to the dining table, he said sth tat got me tinkin (i am a typical tink too much gal).. he asked me to buy a few more of the monkeys tat i gave him for vday, den i told him to use the one i gave him, he said he cant bear to use thou the cover was dented, n was sayin nth is perfect, includin him.. i agreed with his pt n said tat neither am i perfect, but in my heart i started to ponder over his words..

he was showin me some photos of his trip to hk the other time, before we made a move.. in his car, he started to mention abt wat his frens said in the afternoon tat how come we din hold hands, n he asked for my hand.. i was so tensed up and nervous wen he held my hand.. haha.. and cant reli concentrate well while he's driving and talkin.. but we talked abt some tings tat i guessed we din reli raised up before we got together, and i guess it was beta to raise it up now.. jus like the part tat i told him i once thought tat we wun land up together, tat was sth tat i knew tat i wun say if we haven got together..

can say it's due to insecurity at tat pt of time, cuz i had doubts abt us, n due to the uncertainties then, i can only rely on my instincts and beliefs to do tings.. and oso bcuz of the bad experience tat i once had.. but i'm relieved to say tat i had survived tat stage, if not i wun be his gf.. like i say always.. i'm grateful to wat i am now, and i am cherishing every moment, if not i wun be bloggin every bit of my beautiful memories..

back to the pt.. i told him to wait for me awhile as i need to pass him sth, so he accompanied me to walk me up to my lift lobby, den he held my hand again while we walked towards the lift.. as usual, i shy n blushed again.. after gettin his tings, i walked back with him to the car, cuz there's sth i haven give him, thus it's beta to do it there.. *hiak hiak* i was plannin to play a small prank on him first, but in the end, nth was done, cuz he took the initiative again n kissed me.. *stunned again.. cuz while i was walkin back to the lift, i kept on askin myself repeatedly, "did i do tat..?" haha.. hmm.. i felt as if that was my first time.. but indeed can say tat ma, cuz like wat he said, the previous time was probably my one-sided love only..

afterwords.. some tings are jus unexplainable, jus like the ones tat i'm goin to describe.. wen i was touchin his palm in the afternoon and holdin his hand, the feelin was almost exactly the same as how i felt in my dreams - the same texture, the same touch (a strange ting indeed) and the second ting was wen he held my hand and kissed me, i had a very strong feeling within me tat was tellin me tat "He is the One".. bcuz like wat i told aloy before, wen i was with the previous one, the feelin jus felt very weird wen he kissed me or held my hands, yet i cant explain y and tot it was normal cuz first time ma.. but aloy said tat probably it was bcuz he was not the one for me, thus i felt it was not rite.. but now i finally understood wat aloy meant.. bcuz only wen the "chosen one" came, den the feeling wil become rite.. haha.. and the last ting was, i always got so nervous durin some of the times tat i'm with him, esp i got temptations to do sth, the feelin jus got worse.. mayb bcuz i reli liked him ba.. den he always caught me by surprise with his "stunts? hehe..

anyway, it seems like i'm startin to see the rainbow after the rain finally.. let's jiayou together..!

(by the way, i had changed the title of my blog, so u shld noe the name of apple now..)