Had a wonderful and great weekend!!

I had a wonderful weekend these 2 days!! bcuz me got to see apple for 2 days.. =)
I got my first chance watching a concert with him, and it's one of my favorite group - Mayday.. It was a great and fantastic concert, and I guessed it felt so good bcuz he was seated beside me.. How I wished the concert will continue on, and I can get to hold his hands longer.. It was also a good experience to walk out of the concert hall and walked to the bus stop.. walking under the sky of stars ~ oh, tat's romantic..

Reaching the 3 mths' mark in another week, can say that I'm stil very happy with him.. He made me felt important, especially during the period that I felt very down and demoralised.. He was there for me when i needed most.. He worries, cares, shares, and likes me, jus like the way I did towards him.. Jiayou!!

Life is so unpredictable..

Aloy's grandma has just passed away, and I got to know abt this news was when I logged into Facebook, and saw the msg that he had displayed on his page: "Aloysius Yeo is asking everyone to give a little prayer for his grandmother who passed away on 13 Apr 08 at around 3 plus in the morning!!"

He asked me out for dinner on the day b4 his bday, and I somehow guessed that something was wrong wen I heard his voice and also bcuz he would call me like this if he is not feeling down.. On our way to our dinner, I got to know abt the hospitalisation of his grandma and the stories abt his family.. He was kinda indecisive on whether to pay a visit to his grandma as he was rather pissed off by the words of wat his relatives had said, but I told him to go visit her b4 he reli regrets it - bcuz I had my regrets for not being able to have a last look of my grandma b4 she breathed her last 8 yrs ago.. Thou upset, I din reli feel the pain and regretful back then (probably I'm stil young..?), but the feeling of regret jus came out suddenly wen I heard the grandma of one of my ex-staff had passed away.. It jus bring back alot of memories and mayb I had grew up, so I noe how it reli feels.. from tat day onwards, I told myself I have to cherish the ppl ard me, esp those I reli cared and loved, so tat I wun have any regrets.. Though I duno hv I been doin wat I had said, but I'm tryin my best to conserve any bits and pieces of beautiful memories that I am having..

Was passin by Times Bookshop at PS tat day, and happened to see a book talkin abt wat wil you do if you are left with 1 hour to live.. The book was compiled by an author's wife whose husband had passed away suddenly, and b4 that he had written a short note abt wat are the tings that he wil do if he is left with 1 hour to live.. I din manage to read finish the book, but it somehow inspires me to tink wat would I do if the same situation was to happen to me..?

Jus like my blog title says - Life is so unpredictable.. You wouldn't noe wat would happen the next second, minute or day.. thus I always like to say, 开心是一天，不开心也是一天，何不开开心心地过每一天？ Live life to your fullest.. I like to fantacise alot or rather I watched too much of drama serials whereby the ppl in the drama lost their memories or gone missing suddenly.. If ever one day I din lose my memory, I hope someone would tell me that I have this blog or notes in my hp, which I noted down alot of tings that happened during these few years of my life.. and if I am only left with 1 hour to live, I would choose to spend it with apple - someone whom I reli cherished now.. tellin him the tings tat I nv been able to tell him, and many other tings tat I cant tink of now.. at the same time, msg my friends and tell them how much I thanked them and loved them in my growing up process.. and also my gratitude to my parents and bro..

I seemed to be too serious liao.. but who noes wat would happen, isnt it..? good to hv a "guideline" to see if tings reli happen, if not jus count my blessings everyday and share my happiness to the ppl beside me..

To all ppl out there.. must be happy always ar..!!

My Kiss Personality..

Was kinda boliao tat day, so went to some sites to do some personality tests..

You're a Shy Kisser
You *do* love to kiss, once your comfortable with it
And that means knowing the person you're kissing pretty well
You usually don't make the first move when it comes to making out
But you've got plenty of intensity in return

Sandy, you're a Bashful Kisser
Sure you might be on the shy side as far as kissing goes, but that's a quality more people than you might think really go for. When you were younger, was it hard for you to talk to new people — especially when it came to someone you were interested in? Yeah, we thought so.

Lucky for you, many people, back then, and now, think that shyness is adorable and a huge turn on. After all, there's a comfort they get from the feeling that you don't lock lips with just anyone. When it comes to kissing, you're probably a little hesitant to try new techniques. Heck, you might even prefer to stick with gentle pecks until your date finally decides to take it further.

While shyness is nice, just remember not to get so anxious you forget to have fun! Know your comfort level, but experiment a little — even if that just means a public display of affection, or we dare you, a nice long kiss — eyes open, lights on!

Sandy, your perfect kiss is a First Kiss
Pretty much every kiss is better than no kiss at all, right? But nothing (nothing!) beats that butterflies-in-the-stomach, heart-racing, what's-it-going-to-be-like first kiss with someone new. You're the kind of person who loves wearing the latest clothes and hearing that hot new album before it comes out. Novelty is the spice of life no matter what you're doing or who you're doing it with, and it doesn't get any spicier than the first time.

Even if you've been with someone for years, you'd still rather kiss like it's the first time, every time. Switch it up and try something different like a breathless kiss in a strange city or a naughty stolen kiss in the backseat of a taxi, and it'll feel brand new. Trust us!

Afterthoughts from previous blog..

Now is after office hours, yet I am stil here alone, tryin hard to sort out the tings I have to do.. need to have a breather, thus thot of bloggin again.. tat's the only way i can tell my mind to have a rest and tink of sth else.. hehe..


I mentioned in the previous blog tat i got sth to say, but not appropriate in tat entry, so i decided to elaborate a little bit more here.. actually it was sth tat Tricia said while relating her date tat day, which reminded me of sth interesting tat happened to me..and also apple..


After some considerations, tink i wil post a formal blog another day with all the events that happened after I wrote "Confessions Part 2 - Present", bcuz it gets abit distorted to see a little bit here, a little bit there.. so watch out for the entry that wil come out many months later.. (cuz i took mths to finish that confession ting..)

What is Love..?

Jus met up with Tricia over a cup of coffee yest to talk abt us..

Can't imagine how tings can change so fast within 24 hrs.. haiz..

It had been a couple of years b4 we arranged to meet up as we were tied up with our work and so on, so yest was a gd chance for us to talk abt something common - bgr..

She had jus gotten "attached", with a guy whom she knew for years, and arranged to meet up for the first time last nite.. but tings seemed to have changed this morn, wen i got a slight shock upon seein her msg.. "we silently broke off".. does tat mean the vulnerability of a r'ship?

yest we were stil happily sharin our stories of love (or rather it's jus mine..?), but i could see and sense the sweetness in her heart wen the guy called/smsed her, tat was exactly the same feeling that i had wen i saw/talked to apple.. I was very glad to see her like tat as i had seldom seen her like tat, probably bcuz this is her 1st r'ship..

but the series of sms-es from her today jus made me felt the whole atmosphere changed.. it was full of uncertainties and confusion.. i told her to calm down wen she started crying and asked her to tell me wat happened last nite, wen they met up.. wen i heard the events, i thought it was normal as the guy was doing wat a gentleman should do, and wat a couple is doing.. Getting a drink with 2 straws.. Keeping the tickets stubs.. (actually wanted to relate sth of mine here, but tink beta start a new entry to elaborate as the tone here is rather sad..)

I simply told her not to worry, and all those tings were normal, but there is a part whereby i dun understand either, as in the guy seemed to turn abit cold towards her after the meetin.. and it's not as if he had never seen her in person, as he went to her competition last sat, thou my fren din manage to see him.. or is it bcuz of the msg my fren sent..? she smsed him sth like this, "if you wan to reconsider the r'ship, i'm fine with it.." bcuz she have no confidence in herself as she is slightly plump, but she was much more prettier as she noes how to doll up, unlike me, so chor lor..

back to the pt.. i was tryin to cheer her up by sayin tat it's bcuz of the msg she sent him, might have given him a wrong impression that she wasnt interested in him, so i asked her to send a msg to tell him tat she dun mean it tat way.. and asked her to wait for the reply.. but i din expect tat he din reply soon.. n i gotten more msgs fr her as time goes by..

Thou she kept on sayin tat she's alrite and she can accept watever reply that she would get from the guy, but i knew deep in her heart tat she is lying to herself as I went thru the same path as her before, and it wil take a long time + constant support from frens to get thru it..

Afterthoughts, this makes me tink "what is love?" - it is something tat can make someone at the top of the mountain at one moment, and the moment, deep down in the cliffs.. mayb tat's part and parcel of life..

words for Tricia: “大姐，你一定要加油喔！”

情侣速配

happened to see this online, and find it quite true for the both of us.. i noe it's beta not to believe such tings so much, but no harm takin a look at it.. haha..


巨蟹座：处女座　　

配对指数　　

友情：★★★★　　

爱情：★★★　　

婚姻：★★★★　　

亲情：★★★

　　谈情必读：

　　你们通常是由朋友关系开始，经过一段时间相处或者因为一些导火线使你们发觉对方可以是你的终生伴侣，不过这个阶断可能拖拖拉拉好久才肯定，你们两个都缺乏主动性而且太内向，心里面对感情有不同方向的恐惧，巨蟹座永远都怕受伤，处女座总觉得每一个恋人与他心目中的完美有大截距离，因为这样拉锯浪费了不少可贵青春，好在你们一旦走在一起，就可以有长久的关系。　　共同组织一个家庭的时间，也是你们感情的另一次考验，虽然巨蟹座很有持家之道，但比起处女座那种分毫必计的小家态度还有一点距离，要小心你们往往容易小题大做，把一些小事化大，“湿湿碎碎”的小争吵，其实很易破坏你们的感情，要小心。　　对你们来讲，Sex不是重要的一件事，只是维持大家关系的小环节，有点例行公事一样。

Honesty..

Out of a sudden, received an unusual msg from apple, which made me felt kinda touched..? cuz it's not his style to say out tings like tat out of a sudden, rather he wil show them thru his actions.. and i am oso very honest to tell him tat i wrote alot of tings tat he din noe on my blog.. (too honest liao rite?) at first, i din reli hv the intention to let him noe abt this, cuz this blog contains my deepest secrets or memories, thou there were times tat i do hope he wil come n take a look.. but now i noe he sure wil come.. aiyo.. die liao la.. haha..

i guessed it had became a habit to be honest to him startin fr the day i first knew him, bcuz it's hard to find someone tat i duno well, yet was able to let me grumble abt anythin n pour all my sorrows on.. i reli enjoyed those days where i was tellin lots of nonsense to him, and thou i do feel very bad at times, but i stil continued cuz a true listening ear is hard to find nowadays.. but as time goes by, i wil become very uneasy if i hide anything from him bcuz there was once a period of time where i hid some tings fr him, i was feeling very uncomfortable which i decided to tell him in the end and i felt sooo relieved..

And ever since the day i had an "official status" with him, i felt even better cuz there were alot of tings tat i din dare to say b4 tat (bcuz i duno is it appropriate to say them out..?), and now i can say them out to him.. initially wil stil get abit scare scare, cuz had nv done tat b4.. hmm, can say alot of my "first times" came from him, which i tink i can compile into a book liao.. haha.. can't imagine the presence of this unknown alien caused my life to change, or rather to put it seriously, he was the one who changed my perception for many tings..

there are stil many things i would like to blog, but due to work constraints, i wil always forget by the time i can blog.. mayb i wil blog them in future..? anyway, i dun tink he wil be able to read all my blog entries so fast.. haha.. and i seemed to be repeating the same old grandmother story everytime too.. hehe..

now tat he noes abt the secret of my blog, should i pray hard tat he wun come n read my blog so fast? haha.. watch out for my next entry to check on the status..

6 months after..

Yest was actually 6 months after I asked him: “你是不是喜欢我？”.. Can say I'm quite gd in remembering dates, and of cuz I remembered the series of events tat happened tat day..

I met up with apple yest, and we went to jur pt to walk around and had dinner at his house.. (I bet my frens would say: "huh.. so boring ar.. don't u two hv any other places to go beside these 2?") haha.. my replies would always be: "nvm la, at least we got go out and walk ar.."

I treat every meeting/date as first date, cuz u will feel very happy and lookin forward to it.. Jus like yest.. despite hanging out with him so many times, i'm stil quite shy til now, he has to take the initiative to hold my hand everytime.. hehe..

Can say i stil not used to seein guys bare-bodied (upper body) ba, even thou my bro n dad always did tat at home.. haha.. i wil feel very paiseh n divert my attention wen he was walkin bare-bodied after his bath (lucky he got put on his t-shirt after tat..)

Nth much in between.. walking ard jur pt, having dinner and watchin tv at his house b4 he sent me home.. but the crux was the part wen he sent me home..

Earlier in one of my entries, I mentioned abt the fear tat i had.. and after givin it a gd thot, i felt tat i need to overcome it, and with the help of him.. and coincidentally, i had a dream abt a week ago regardin tat matter.. weird rite? but anyway, let me continue with the story.. I was tinkin of "givin it another try" durin one of the times tat he sent me home, and yest was a gd chance.. haha..

Sidetrack abit.. I got a little unhappy wen he was driving very dangerously last nite along the expressway.. I kept quiet for a moment until he started the conversation again.. wen I got off the car, I told him not to drive tat dangerously, and it was very consoling to hear tat he wil change..

Back to the topic.. Wen his car reached the carpark below my block, he asked whether I wa him to send me up, I said no need, so it's time to say goodbye, as usual practice - I/he wil give each other a peck on the cheek/lips, cuz i was tinkin tat it's impossible to carry out my "mission" for the day.. haha.. in the end, (too shy to disclose, bt not sth dirty ar..), and it's probably the first time i felt comfortable kissin a guy like tat.. haha.. my heart was beating so fast than usual, faster than wen he first held my hands, but at tat split second, I knew i had overcame my fear or at least i had taken a big step out of it..

I noe it's super "goosebumpy/mushy" to write such tings here, but this is the best way i can keep my beautiful memories sealed.. Tricia asked me whether has he said the 3 magic words to me, my answer is NO, but i dun mind cuz i noe it takes time for a person to change the liking to a loving.. for him, i believed he had loved someone deeply, and hurt deeply before, thus it wil take even a longer time for him to love another person.. Thou I had mentioned this many times, but I stil want to repeat this again n again.. I'm blessed to wat I am and wat i have today, if not bcuz of him, i would have went thru even more terrible tings back then.. and the feeling of being loved n valued is reli indescribable..

sick apple..

my apple fell sick le.. got so worried wen i saw his msg and heard his voice yest.. cuz i seldom see/hear him fallin ill.. duno is it bcuz we r together now, felt abit "heartache" to hear him like tat.. thus i was up to my tricks again today.. i went down to put "special delivery" on his car..

I din bother to work OT today, bcuz my heart was not there, rather it was worryin abt his "heatiness".. weather's been very bad lately - super burning hot/heavily raining.. n we arranged to meet this fri for a date cuz we din meet up for 2 wks.. hehe.. i dun wish him to go out with me wen he is not feelin well, i wun feel gd either..

went down to jur pt to get him some "duno wat" water, and bought him egg tarts for his family too.. but din wan to go up to his house, thus i decided to place on his car again.. after puttin on his car, i started to worry abt the food, cuz there are ppl walkin abt at the carpark.. after a few mins, i decided to call him down, but i played "hide and seek" with him.. after hearin tat he went home liao, i started regrettin for not able to see him, n i called him down again, jus to take a glance..

the glance became a walk to the mrt.. haha.. can say tat my heart n mind doesnt agree on same ting again.. or rather is bcuz i missed him..? thou i always like to say tat i "suffered" fr the side effects of r'ship, but those were the tings tat i'm enjoyin now..

"happiness comes from the person who created it, and also the person who's helpin to support it" ~ sAn's philosophy..