6 months after..

Yest was actually 6 months after I asked him: “你是不是喜欢我？”.. Can say I'm quite gd in remembering dates, and of cuz I remembered the series of events tat happened tat day..

I met up with apple yest, and we went to jur pt to walk around and had dinner at his house.. (I bet my frens would say: "huh.. so boring ar.. don't u two hv any other places to go beside these 2?") haha.. my replies would always be: "nvm la, at least we got go out and walk ar.."

I treat every meeting/date as first date, cuz u will feel very happy and lookin forward to it.. Jus like yest.. despite hanging out with him so many times, i'm stil quite shy til now, he has to take the initiative to hold my hand everytime.. hehe..

Can say i stil not used to seein guys bare-bodied (upper body) ba, even thou my bro n dad always did tat at home.. haha.. i wil feel very paiseh n divert my attention wen he was walkin bare-bodied after his bath (lucky he got put on his t-shirt after tat..)

Nth much in between.. walking ard jur pt, having dinner and watchin tv at his house b4 he sent me home.. but the crux was the part wen he sent me home..

Earlier in one of my entries, I mentioned abt the fear tat i had.. and after givin it a gd thot, i felt tat i need to overcome it, and with the help of him.. and coincidentally, i had a dream abt a week ago regardin tat matter.. weird rite? but anyway, let me continue with the story.. I was tinkin of "givin it another try" durin one of the times tat he sent me home, and yest was a gd chance.. haha..

Sidetrack abit.. I got a little unhappy wen he was driving very dangerously last nite along the expressway.. I kept quiet for a moment until he started the conversation again.. wen I got off the car, I told him not to drive tat dangerously, and it was very consoling to hear tat he wil change..

Back to the topic.. Wen his car reached the carpark below my block, he asked whether I wa him to send me up, I said no need, so it's time to say goodbye, as usual practice - I/he wil give each other a peck on the cheek/lips, cuz i was tinkin tat it's impossible to carry out my "mission" for the day.. haha.. in the end, (too shy to disclose, bt not sth dirty ar..), and it's probably the first time i felt comfortable kissin a guy like tat.. haha.. my heart was beating so fast than usual, faster than wen he first held my hands, but at tat split second, I knew i had overcame my fear or at least i had taken a big step out of it..

I noe it's super "goosebumpy/mushy" to write such tings here, but this is the best way i can keep my beautiful memories sealed.. Tricia asked me whether has he said the 3 magic words to me, my answer is NO, but i dun mind cuz i noe it takes time for a person to change the liking to a loving.. for him, i believed he had loved someone deeply, and hurt deeply before, thus it wil take even a longer time for him to love another person.. Thou I had mentioned this many times, but I stil want to repeat this again n again.. I'm blessed to wat I am and wat i have today, if not bcuz of him, i would have went thru even more terrible tings back then.. and the feeling of being loved n valued is reli indescribable..