江美琪/光良 - 对你有感觉

我曾深刻体会　
对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你　
给我安慰
看你失落的脸　
又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈
眼角的泪　
它给过谁伤透了心　
也无所谓我会愿意　
静静地　
陪在你身边
如果说爱　
已不可为
那我宁愿　
藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备　
跨越爱的界线
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退　
被爱包围　
谁犯规　
都狼狈谁能解围　
让一切完美
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我　
拥抱瞬间　
不后悔　
这暧昧星光唯美　
把爱放心里面

There's a reason for publishing this post cuz it had a significant meaning behind the lyrics, n coincidentally, some of the lyrics actually wat happened to two ppl ard my surrounding.. I was tinking, is the song reflecting wat human beings are goin thru in life, or vice versa? We shall see wat wil happen to the 2 ppl at the end of the day.. wil they landed up together or like wat the lyrics ended, they din say out anythin n keep the love deep in their heart..?

Updates..

It had been a mth since my last update.. Lots of tings happened recently.. Company D&D, colleague's weddin, n piles of work..*haiz*

Went for my company's D&D 2 wks back.. It's the first function (I guess it wil oso be the last for me in this company), first time I wore a champagne tube? top, long purple skirt, a pink shawl n heels.. (oso with some light makeup by my own..hehe..) I went to make a zig zag perm for my hair, tink I reli looked different on tat day.. I looked somehow I wanted to be.. A princess thou I'm not pretty.. Felt beautiful for e first time, with my colleagues commenting tat I looked my age, different from how I looked at work.. *the cleaner auntie look*

Next up is the weddin of my Indian colleague, it had been quite some time since I attended a weddin, so duno wat to wear, but lucky is not at a restaurant, no need to formal.. I went out in the morn to search for the attire.. After hours of searching, finally found a short brown skirt with a light champagne Hush Puppies top.. Coincidentally, the color matched.. I did my hair on my own, n wore the accessories tat I borrowed from my fren, again I looked like my age.. But I was kind of the odd one out, cuz the rest of my colleagues, wore uniform.. Haha.. My colleague commented tat if I "dolled" myself everyday to work, nx yr sure is my weddin.. I was like.. No way.. Haha..

Next is work.. RELI PRESSURIZED!! Evryday barked by my boss over sometings, or nth.. offer cards not up - my fault. Tings not done - my fault. Any other matters - oso my prob.. My morale fell to the bottom again.. I reli felt like cryin n submittin the resignation form.. Ya, it may b a trainin to me, but I felt tat it's kinda far too harsh on me.. I dun wan to change.. but it is makin me to change.. I reli talked like Cheryl wen I talked back to my boss.. I was merely hopin to get my job done, but given the time I had, I reli cant do much.. I stil got so much paperwork n other commitments outside.. Wat's more, my practical driving test is comin soon, I need time n concentration on tat too.. n I need my personal time.. I simply got no off for the past 2 or 3 mths due to the commitments n work.. everyday hv to worry this worry tat.. I wil break down soon..

Wil update soon.. hope the situation wun get worse.. n hope tat I will pass my test, n this make a reason for me to resign.. Jia You!!

《恋人未满》

《恋人未满》

为什么只和你能聊一整夜

为什么才道别就又想见面

在朋友里面就数你最特别

总让我觉得很亲很贴

为什么你在意谁陪我逛街

为什么你担心谁对我放电

你说你对我，比别人多一些

却又不说是多哪一些

友达以上恋人未满

甜蜜心烦，愉悦混乱

我们以后会变怎样

我迫不及待想知道答案

再靠近一点就让你牵手

再勇敢一点我就跟你走

你还等什么时间已经不多

再下去只好只作朋友

再向前一点点我就会点头

再冲动一点点我就不闪躲

不过三个字别犹豫这么久

只要你说出口你就能拥有我

为什么你寂寞只想要我陪

为什么我难过只肯让你安慰

我们心里面明明都有感觉

为什么不敢面对

我不相信

都动了感情却到不了爱情

那么贴心却进不了心底

你能不能快一点决定

对我说我爱你

Sometimes in Life, I tink such incidents actually happen wen u r close to a fren of the opposite gender.. You wil want to share everytin under the sun to him/her, whether u r sad or happy, n u will treat this special fren very nice.. You tend to rely almost completely on this fren, whether u r attached or not, this special fren wil go thru the up and down with u.. As time goes by, a strange feeling will slowly developed, that u might have fallen for the fren.. IF u tink u have feelings for this special fren, do not let him/her go, if not u wil start to regret wen the fren got attached again.. and the reason tat he/she got attached may not be he/she hv feeling for the other party, rather is the fren is waiting for an ans for u or take the first move, yet u didnt n the outer party did.. Grab hold of ur happiness if u tink this special fren of urs might be a gd choice, for we only live once, n we duno wen our short-lived life wil end.. Cheers!

Childish side of me..

Hooray!! Yippee!! Finally it rained!! and I got myself happily drenched in the rain.. Reminds me of my childhood days.. Loved the rain, but seldom got the chance to get drenched cuz parents dun allow.. Stil remembered wearing the raincoat, walkin under the rain.. So happy n naive..

To tink back of myself, sometimes I felt tat I'm stil childish at times, or rather all ppl have a childish side in his or her own shell.. We r stil a big kid at heart.. No matter how old u r, as long as u r young at heart, u wun grow old mentally n feel like an old man/woman.. this is wat i tink la.. I always loved to smile or stick out my tongue, it helps to destress, n as time goes by, it became a habit.. n some of my frens actually told me tat I'm cute.. haha.. ke ai = ke lian mei ren ai.. haha.. n sometimes after my meal at the hawker centre, my face will be reddish.. this is sometin tat i'll have to agree tat very cute.. but sometimes overly red, not good.. like burnt face.. haha..

gotta go n hv a rest le.. later stil got nite work.. wil update again wen i'm free..

The past still bothers me..

Felt very emotional today.. And till now I stil cant get over it.. I was being reminded of the past.. A painful past.. Something that I cant reverse the process..

I was being informed by KT when he came to work today.. His grandma has passed away.. Out of a sudden, I was being reminded of my grandma's death.. Everything jus came back to my mind.. All of them.. A sudden surge of emotion jus came to me, which I felt like crying..

My grandma passed away 6 yrs ago, on July 30th.. The day I will never forget.. n with a tinge of regret..

That year was the year that I was having my 'O' Levels exams.. n that year was the most so-called busiest year bcuz my grandma kept falling down and injured herself quite badly on few occasions.. But none of us was able to take good care of her bcuz due to our respective work n study commitments.. What we could do was try to stay at home as much as possible to watch over her in case of any possible incident/injury again..

A few days before her death, she fell down again.. She reli hurt herself in a very bad state.. She could only lie on bed and I could see bruises (she was prone to such bruises).. I was reli afraid to see her state tat I everytime siam.. She couldnt eat or drink properly.. My mom took leave to look after her.. As I was stil considered young then, alot of tings were not conveyed to me, cuz adults wil only say, kids like us wun noe anythin de..

On that fateful day, I had arranged to meet my best fren bcuz her bday was comin up.. It was a sunday.. I walked once or twice to my grandma's rm to take a look at her, wat I could see was that she seemed to be in great pain.. I waited till quite late like 12+pm den I went out.. I still remembered seein my mom cried tat day.. It's like she somehow had a feelin tat my grandma wun be able to live long.. I waited my fren at her house's bus stop, n when she din come on time, I called her house, no one picked up the call, n I was rather pissed off.. So i hopped on the bus, n when the bus made a turn, I saw her.. I got down the bus n wanted to chide her.. But she told me something.. My mom had called her to inform me tat my grandma "cannot le".. I was like duno wat to do.. wat I could do was to hop on a cab n went all the way home.. I stil remembered tat the taxi was goin at a very slow rate even when I told him tat my grandma was dyin..

I ran all the way from the lift to my house, n I was too late.. My grandma had left us forever.. When I went inside her room to take a look at her, I could sense tat she left in pain.. I duno wat to react, or rather I was not feelin as upset as I should.. A song jus came to my mind.. Zhang Huimei's "Jie Tuo".. I was cryin.. My mind is in a blank.. I called my fren to tell her tat I wun be coming back to sch for 2 days.. I stil remembered wat my fren told me, dun take too many days.. I was not in the mood to do anything..

We din hold any wake or wat.. Cuz my mom din have any relative, neither does she has much frens.. We were by our grandma's lifeless body for a day before she was taken away by the undertaker and being sent to the crematarian.. She looked as if she was alive, jus like lying on her bed.. I remembered we put alot of her clothings and her favorite tidbits inside her coffin.. And there.. she is reli gone forever..

2 days later, all of us except my mom, went back to work as per normal.. And I had let this matter to be kept behind me from then on.. I thought I had oredi settled my emotions down on tat matter le.. but today's news from KT had reminded me of the painful past.. Wat I need is some time ba.. Wat done cant be undone.. n life stil have to go on.. we must always look forward n not let our past bothers us.. Treat the ppl better, means treatin urself beta.. Life is beautiful!!

My Characteristics.. Very accurate..

Virgo General Character

http://www.pixelgirldesign.com/astrology/virgo.html

Dominant Keyword: I ANALYZE.
Lucky Day: Wednesday
Lucky Numbers: 5 and 3
Birthstone: Sapphire
Colors: Navy Blue and Gray
Metal: Mercury

Your most likeable trait: CONSCIENTIOUSNESS

The real drama of Virgo's personality is interior. To the world you may give an impression of calm authority, but you are aware of your own nervous, restless, controlled intensity, the desire to be up and doing, rearranging, improving. You can exhaust yourself more by simply sitting still than others do moving around.

The planet Mercury, which rules both Virgo and Gemini, inclines its subjects toward constant activity. However, in Gemini the nervous energy is directed primarily toward stimulation and adventure, while in Virgo the ceaseless drive is to accomplish and perfect. It's impossible for Virgos to put off until tomorrow what might be done today, or to do later what might be done now. You are, in a word, organized. Your idea of taking it easy would seem like hard work to most people. You are not a daydreamer, you're a day-doer.

Your emotional life is a constant striving to bring order out of chaos. Although you have a great capacity for love, love alone is not enough for you to be happy. You need more than a mate, home, children, friends. You must justify your life, conduct yourself as a good bookkeeper keeps a ledger—always ready to give a reckoning on whether there's a profit or a loss.

Intelligence is the hallmark of your sign. The symbol is a young woman gathering wheat, and Virgo people harvest information, assimilate facts, and put what they learn to practical use. You have an excellent memory, an analytical mind, and are know for crystal-clear thinking. You also have a keen ability to probe into human motivations.

People like to check their plans with you before putting them in action because you have microscopic vision when it comes to detecting a flaw. Your superb logic cuts through muddled thinking like a laser beam. Because you believe life should be approached rationally, you are without peer in solving knotty problems or tangled disputes. You are convinced that a reasoned presentation of the facts will carry the day. Until you have the facts before you, you are reluctant to make a decision. Your faith is not in Chinese fortune cookies or in weighing-machine cards, but in facts, and you distrust ideas that don't stand up to critical appraisal or people who make emotional judgments.

The first thing you learned about money matters is that money does matter. Although you tend to be critical of your own ability in financial affairs, no one is better than you at staying within a budget. You aren't tempted into foolish ventures. Your bank balances usually jibe to the decimal point. You want the finest but rarely overpay, and you have a built-in resistance against self-indulgence.

One of your major faults is that you don't see the forest for the trees. A preoccupation with neatness and precision sometimes limits your breadth of vision. That estimable faith in logic also confines your imagination and leaves you a little shy on inspiration, too dependent on established practices and methods. Your nature is to look back and analyze rather than push forward in a new direction. You must know the why and how of everything. Virgo is a mutable sign, however, so you can adjust easily to change once you find way of fitting the new situation into your routine.

You may run into difficulty because of a tendency to complicate everything. No problem is ever simple for Virgo. For every answer you've got a question, and making mountains out of molehills is one of your specialties.

Your nature is shy and reserved; its' hard for you to relax, to make small talk or be gregarious with strangers. You prefer one-on-one encounters, in which you can offer the full benefit of your sharp insights and discerning opinions. That's also when people discover how well-read, perceptive, charming, and witty you are.

A highly developed sense of discrimination may lead you to be hypercritical. You are unsatisfied with things as they are and continue to analyze situations and people in the hope of finding a way to make them better. At times your finely tuned sensibilities can even make you unhappy, for they give you a heightened awareness of the world's imperfections. However, you resist criticism of your faults from others. It's a rare Virgo who takes criticism well or who can admit to being in the wrong.

You are health-conscious and try to make sure you get enough vitamins and go for regular check-ups at the dentist. However in this as in other areas, you can't help being a worrier. As a result you are prone to tension and nervous ailments. Hypochondria is common among Virgos.

A warm loving relationship brings out the best in anyone born under this sign because basically you are kind, devoted and very loyal. When your affections are engaged you tireless try to serve loved ones. They will never have to worry about who's going to keep the checkbook balanced, or look after them when they are ill.

Virgo Love Compatibility

http://www.pixelgirldesign.com/astrology/virgo_love.html

Virgo: The Amorous Nature

YOU AND THE VIRGO WOMAN

She keeps her passions under a tight rein, but underneath emotions are surging. Outwardly she may appear calm, sometimes even remote and unreachable, for the quintessential Virgo has a serene, almost classic repose. Yet hers is one of the most conflicted signs.

Basically, Virgo woman distrusts and is a little afraid of emotion. To her it represents the unknown, turbulent sea on which she may be set adrift without map or compass or rudder. because of this a man may wonder if she isn't a bit cold. She isn't. Virgo's enormous capacity for loving will pour out, as from a rich treasury, once her emotions are unlocked. Virgo is a much misunderstood sign, and Virgo women particularly are often characterized as timid, evasive, reserved. This is also untrue. What Virgo women do have is self-possession, a sense of passion that is controlled by discipline.

Virgo is an earth sign, and like all the earth signs (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn) she is an enigmatic combination of sensuality and conservatism. The Virgo woman likes men, but she is very careful about allowing herself to become too involved with them. She fears being trapped into a long term living arrangement with the wrong man. Before she marries or enters into a meaningful affair, she is careful to take note where the exit doors are. For a Virgo woman, falling in love can take a long time. She moves forward step by step, revealing the layers of her deep sensitivity, learning to trust.

She is discriminating. Rather than go out with a man who doesn't interest her, she'll stay home and read a good book. This does not mean (as some have tried to imply) that she thinks lovemaking is a poor substitute for a good book. It's just that she doesn't mind waiting for Mr. Right to come along. When he does he will find behind her cool facade a real woman waiting, warm and responsive. Meanwhile, her off-putting manner has served a useful purpose. It kept Mr. Wrong from intruding where he was not wanted.

The real clue to understanding Virgo woman's amorous nature is to remember that she believes in true love. When she truly loves, her inhibitions are never in control of her passions. However, this is not a woman you can take for granted. You must strive hard to win her, please her, fulfill her. If you can, you will have a partner who pays you back in lifelong dividends of love, loyalty, and happiness.


YOU AND VIRGO MAN

He gives an impression of being in firm control of his emotions but this is often a disguise. The Virgo man is sensitive, receptive, sensuous, and cautious all at the same time. He will never sweep you into the bedroom and take you by force. For one thing, he has too much respect for a woman.

Because he does not find it easy to express his own deep feelings, he is often drawn to women who are effusive and vivacious. Yet he has a horror of getting embroiled in tempestuous scenes and angry tantrums. Emotionality upsets him, but because he is both attracted to and disturbed by it, his love life never runs as smoothly as he'd like. This man's love nature can be described as private. At times there is even a surface quality of untouchableness about him, but this is an expression of his self-containment. He has a keen sense of the dividing line between your psyche and his.

The woman a Virgo man ultimately chooses has to measure up to very high standards. What he particularly doesn't like in a woman is any suggestion of coarseness, cheapness, or loose and careless conduct. Fastidious is a good word for what he does like.

While he doesn't find it easy to express himself directly about his emotional needs, he has a way of making his dissatisfactions known. He can be demanding. He can find fault. The woman who finds this annoying has one important consolation: His demands and his fault-finding are proof he cares about her. Otherwise, he wouldn't bother.

To some women he may seem lacking in romance, at least in the cinematic tradition of moonlight, roses, and masked men riding into a cobbled courtyard. A woman will never look down from her balcony to find him strumming his guitar and singing romantic ballads. But in the cold light of dawn, in the real world we all inhabit, Virgo men have a lot more to offer than masked riders or lovesick troubadours. For one, a Virgo lover will still be there with the dawn's early light. He won't be riding off to sing ballads to someone else.

Virgo dreams about changing his image. He would like to be a love-'em-and-leave-'em type, a Don Juan, a bon vivant. The woman who taps this secret Virgoan fantasy will reap the surprisingly rich and memorable rewards of his pent-up sensuality. It's all there under the surface, and it's the kind of sensuality that improves with time. As a lover, he is simple, direct, and for real.

If you are looking for quality, not glitter, Virgo is your man.

HOW TO ATTRACT VIRGO

The rule to bear in mind is: Don't overpower. Underplay.

Always try to be a good sport. If that drink you're invited for turns out to be at a health store and consists of carrot and cucumber juice, smile and gulp it. Virgos are finicky eaters and careful about their health. With them, the laws of nutrition rate just behind the Ten Commandments.

In addition tot he old standby of discussing work connected topics, another good conversational subject is pets. Virgos like the smaller variety, especially the exotic kind.
Quickly establish your cultural credentials. Virgos are drawn to people whose intelligence or learning is superior to their own.

Don't probe too closely into their personal affairs. They guard their private life. Avoid noisy places or entertainment that is vulgar or offensive. Virgos pride themselves on their good taste.

Don't let Virgo's worrying upset you. People born under this sign are natural worriers. Will they be on time for the show? Will they catch the plane? Will it rain or snow? Will the mail arrive? the list of their worries is endless. It's no use pointing out that most of the things they worry about never actually happen. They'll go right on worrying anyway; it's their way of coping with what might go wrong.

Both male and female Virgos appreciate gifts that are useful and practical. They are also great hobbyists and are sure to have at least one special interest.

Very few special occasions with Virgo will occur on the spur of the moment—at least not if Virgo can help it. There will be careful planning; all the moves will be figured out in advance. Virgo is marvelous at working behind the scenes to accomplish this. All you have to do is relax and enjoy it.

VIRGO'S AMOROUS COMBINATIONS

VIRGO AND ARIES Virgo can be intrigued by Aries's audaciousness, but Virgo's prudent ways soon clash with Aries's colorful personality. They have difficulty communicating, because Virgo wants to talk and Aries wants to act. Their arguments will probably be more passionate than their lovemaking. Aries will think Virgo is inhibited; Virgo will consider Aries impulsive and wild. Aries likes a flamboyant social life. Virgo is happy with quiet, intellectual friends. Aries is also the type to bring out Virgo's worst habits of nitpicking and nagging. Exit romance.

VIRGO AND TAURUS Virgo is analytical while Taurus is sensuous, but Taurus's strong passions can spark Virgo. If that happens, they make lovely love. Practical, down-to-earth, satisfied with the tried-and-true, these two have much in common. Both try to build for a secure future, both are homebodies, both share a fondness for money. Virgo's rational approach and Taurus's persistence are also a good moneymaking combination. Auguries couldn't be more promising.

VIRGO AND GEMINI They are attracted to each other because of a mutual interest in intellectual ideas. Both have active minds, but the rapport ends there. Gemini's amorous nature is too impulsive and unstable to suit Virgo. Gemini dismisses Virgo as a stick-in-the-mud. Virgo considers Gemini irresponsible and adolescent. Gemini needs freedom to pursue its varied interests. Virgo resents this, and will nag and try to dominate. Gemini will soon stray to other loves.

VIRGO AND CANCER A stimulating affair, for they arouse each other's beneath-the-surface sensuality. Cancer isn't too forceful, which suits Virgo fine. And the little attentions won't be neglected, which suits Virgo even better. Cancer is affectionate and sentimental, and that makes Virgo feel secure. This couple also likes money and domestic comfort, and Cancer's dependency fits perfectly with Virgo's protectiveness. On the downside, both tend to be overcritical. On the upside, each draws the other out of its shell.

VIRGO AND LEO Highly physical Leo takes it as a personal affront if Virgo doesn't match its leonine ardor. Virgo's passive and reserved nature frustrates Leo and leads to quarrels. Virgo isn't quick to hand out praise, and Leo lives on nothing but. Leo is a spendthrift, Virgo is careful with pennies. They're both very independent, but Leo exhibits this in a temperamental way while Virgo is very private. Virgo simply will not be dominated by tyrannical Leo, and always has its guard up. This affair has a shorter life than a May fly.

VIRGO AND VIRGO All is smooth sailing as long as these perfectionists curb their instincts for finding fault. Actually, they bring out the very best in each other. They are responsible, sensitive, intelligent, and take love seriously. They also share passions of the mind, and will never bore each other. Both think that there are more important things in life than sex; they may end up just talking in bed. There will probably be a continue contest over who is leader, but they have too much else in common for that to matter.

VIRGO AND LIBRA Libra is too frivolous and shallow for Virgo's taste. Libra enjoys spending money, going to parties, and being the center of attention. Virgo criticizes and makes Libra feel unloved. Libra may tap Virgo's hidden sensuality but their personalities are altogether too different for real compatibility Virgo will try to curb and dominate Libra's fickle and outer-directed nature. Virgo is reserved and practical, and Libra views this as a personal rebuff. Libra will soon drift away in search of more fun-loving companions.

VIRGO AND SCORPIO Sensual Scorpio keeps trying to entice Virgo into ever bolder sexual adventures. But Virgo is pleased because Scorpio is also possessive and fiercely loyal, which makes Virgo feel loved and protected. They also admire each other's minds. Virgo is logical, intellectual, analytical. Scorpio is imaginative, visionary, perceptive. Each sometimes has trouble expressing real feelings: Scorpio is volatile but secretive; Virgo is self-restrained and reserved. There may be some conflict about who runs things, but Virgo's willingness to compromise keeps Scorpio tractable.

VIRGO AND SAGITTARIUS These two are like the grasshopper and the ant. Sagittarius's free spirit has nothing in common with hardworking Virgo. Sagittarius has a reckless gambler's spirit, while Virgo carefully builds for future security. Both are intellectual signs but the way their minds work clashes with each other. Sagittarius is expansive and extravagant, while Virgo prefers a simple, ordered, and unpretentious life. Sagittarius considers Virgo's sexual attitudes rather prudish, and won't stay long in one bedroom anyway.

VIRGO AND CAPRICORN A harmonious pair. Capricorn's ambition and drive for success meshes well with Virgo's perfectionism and energy. Both are diligent, disciplined, and have a sense of purpose. They admire one another and take great pride in pleasing each other. Both need respect and approval (though neither will confess this), and each intuitively gives the other exactly that. Sexual compatibility becomes a mutual achievement; in lovemaking, though, Capricorn usually takes the lead.

VIRGO AND AQUARIUS They are both rational, intellectual, and tend to view love in the abstract—but the similarity ends there. Aquarius has venturesome ideas and thinks Virgo unresponsive or cold. Actually, each has a distant quality: Virgo is cautious about emotional giving; Aquarius's thoughts are in the far-off clouds. Aquarius is interested in other people, in causes, and in setting the world right. Virgo seeks personal achievement and financial security. Aquarius is outgoing, inventive, a visionary. Virgo is reserved, prudent, and very practical about its ambitions. this couple may not even make it as friends.

VIRGO AND PISCES To Virgo, love means security and mental compatibility. To Pisces, love is a sweeping, all-enveloping emotion. At first Virgo is powerfully attracted to Pisces, as opposites often are: sentimental, in-love-with-love Pisces is very intriguing to Virgo, and Pisces is fascinated by Virgo's incisive, analytical mind. However, disillusion quickly sets in. Pisces's extravagance, secretiveness, and dreaminess frustrate pragmatic, orderly Virgo. Also, Virgo isn't likely to adapt to some of Pisces's sexual preferences.

My definition of 5Cs..

Was chattin with my fren over some bgr tingy last nite.. den somehow I have derived a set of 5Cs on my own.. See whether u all agree anot.. But not applicable to those gals who are kinda materialistic la..

1. It doesnt matter whether a guy has a car anot, as long as he has a license.
2. It doesnt matter whether a guy has a credit card anot, as long as he has an ATM card.
3. It doesnt matter whether a guy has a cert anot, as long as he has shang jin xin (the mindset to keep upgrading).
4. It doesnt matter whether a guy has cash anot, as long as he is willing to go and earn it.
5. It doesnt matter whether a guy has a condo anot, as long as he is able to afford a HDB flat when he get married for the both of them.

I tink generally speakin, wat gals reli wan is security n assurance from guys ba.. All these material or luxury tings wun last long.. Like wat the sayin says, when we come to this world, we din bring any cash here, so when the day we die, we wont be bringing any cash to the other world too.. Live life as it is.. Wat matters is being happy and true to urself..

Recently..

Again.. it had been some time since i put up a decent blog or rather update of my life.. this time i will separate wat happened to me recently into differernt categories.. like that it will be easier to read ba..

Friendship: been meetin up with a couple of frens tat i din meet for a long time.. or rather i was quite busy with work tat i cant afford to ask them out too.. after some matter, i realised that my frens had been with me all along which i reli grateful to them.. they went thru the most difficult period with me.. I reli liked to chat with them along the riverside or wherever, talkin abt any topic under the sky.. some of my frens belong to those who need to give some reminders to let them find out what they reli wan to look in life.. n normally i wil be the one who give them the motivation, sayin some so-called mature things, hoping to wake them up from their 'depression'.. n me myself, i have a fren to motivate me too.. which i reli appreciative of him too.. he waked me up.. if not i wil stil be trapped in my stupid tinkin.. n not the happy-go-lucky me again.. hehe..

Work: Busy like no ppl business.. handling difficult staff is reli not my forte.. being too kind to ppl, means clearing all the shits that they had left u with.. now i reli got 3 heads n 6 arms, covering so many tings til sometimes i m lost in wat i'm supposed to do.. everyday doin the same old tings.. in addition, help to clear the stocks, den have to double check wat my staff order.. sianz.. i reli need new challenges n obstacles.. i cant be doin all these tings.. but i need the pay to survive.. confusing..

Family: nth much to comment.. as usual.. everyone is busy doin his or her own tings.. or rather we din try to improve the condition.. i reli envied those ppl who had a real loving family.. i yearned to have one too.. but.. life is cruel.. tat day i got to go to a fren's house.. i reli can see how loving their family is.. n my heart was tellin me.. this is the kind of family tat i hoped to grow in..

Love: Jus ended an unknown relationship on children's day.. 1st oct.. memorable.. finally can heave a sigh of relief.. cuz i finally realised tat loving someone is so tiring.. n mayb like wat my fellow mates says, this guy doesnt reli worth tat much for me to contribute so much feelings in the relationship.. i had done my part, n i had no regrets.. wat past is past.. we must always look forward to watever in life.. n i guess i'm reli happy with my kind of life rite now.. thou kinda lonely at times, but i was once this lonely too.. the period whereby we din contact, reli clear my mind to realise alot of tings.. n thru alot of events n self-reflection, i tink i noe wat kind of guys tat i wil wan to look for.. there's one in my peers which reli is the type whereby all gals wil wan to have as a bf or husband.. n i believe he is the right guy for most gals.. n this made me derive one sentence : " your ideal guy may not be ur right guy, neither is ur right guy ur ideal guy, but finding the right guy is the most impt cuz he is someone who wil be with u the rest of ur life.." if possible, seek the happiness that u wan.. but for me.. mayb i only have matchmaker luck ba.. so jus let fate takes its path..

Money: broke.broke.broke.. insurance n driving lessons r killin me.. but i am stil able to save a little bit la.. hehe..

Health: need to take care more la.. stupid haze is causin alot of ppl sick..

Overall: Live simply, bcuz this is where u can reli find real happiness besides finding someone who likes/loves u.. Simplicity is happiness.. May all ppl live happily ever after!!

Regards,
San
"the dreamloner who always in seek of her own happiness with simplicity.."

In search of my Mr. Nice Guy..

To the nice guys left...

Message:

To every guy that regrets hurting or losing her.

To every guy who knows which girl he wants!!!!!!!!!!

To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."

To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."

To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her.

To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.

To every guy who has given her flowers just because.

To every guy that said he would die for her.

To every guy that really would.

To every guy that did what she wanted to do.

To every guy that cried in front of her.

To every guy that she cried in front of.

To every guy that holds hands with her.

To every guy that kisses her with meaning.

To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

TO EVERY GUY THAT WOULD SIT AND WAIT FOR HER FOR HOURS JUST TO SEE HER FOR TEN MINUTES.

To every guy that would give his seat up.

To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.

To every guy who told his secrets to her.

To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.

To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

To every guy that believed in her dreams.

To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.

To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

To every guy that walked her to her car.

To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.

To every guy that gave his heart.

To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

-----------

This is one bulletin for you...

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...

And because of this, there are not many left out there...

If you are a nice guy repost this with "Nice guys finish last."

If you are a girl that thinks every guy should try to accomplish even a few of these repost this with: "To the nice guys left."

Rainy Day..

The sky was so dark wen I stepped out of BM.. It was rainin wen I was walkin home.. I was havin mixed feelings wen I was drenchin under the rain.. Rain can represent alot of tings, but normally being referred as sadness.. Esp during days whereby ppl r having their funerals.. It rained.. I was feelin kinda down today bcuz I was supposed to a gd fren of mine, but he had sth on at the last min, so hv to cancel the meeting.. n it happened tat it rained, I can finally get myself drenched while walkin home, so I purposely walked the long way to get myself drenched more.. such chances doesnt come by easily.. same ting applies to alot of tings in life, isnt it?

Alot of tings flashed across my mind while on the bus, where it started to rain.. Lookin at the pedestrians on the road, the blurred images thru the window, tings jus came to me.. Many many tings tat requires me to make a difficult decision.. To be or not to be.. hard to say.. Headache ar..

stay single better..

To everyone out there.. it'l b gd to stay single better.. dun get into a bgr unneccessary if u cant confirm the gal/guy reli likes u.. if not u'l end up makin the wrong choice.. cuz it's always like that.. one side will give more where he/she doesnt noe whether the other party like u anot.. one-sided love.. sad.. esp for gals, pls be careful of the words that guys tell u, cuz it's hard to determine which of his words are true anot.. he might be lying to u all these period, n dun b so gullible and believe all his words.. observe him n time will help to prove everything.. but sometimes sayin is easier than done.. when a gal have oredi fallen in love with the guy, even if the guy is not serious with the gal, she wil stil contribute to the relationship super willingly.. going down to look for him jus for the sake of seeing him, dun mind that he dun send her home at all, willing to do anything for him whereby he did not show anythin to prove that he likes her.. Be careful gals, must noe how to protect urself before u lost something valuable.. and guys out there, pls dun lie to the gals if u like them.. but after sayin so much.... stay single better.. no troubles and worries.. haha..

My personality

No time to blog, so jus send in my personality results..

Are You High Maintenance or Hard Work?

"Oh Man... She's Hard Work"
You are a woman who needs lots of TLC (Tender Loving Care), demanding attention, devotion and quality time from your man. But hey, that's perfectly normal and understandable. When a problem crops up in your relationship, you will want to openly discuss the issue and how to work it out.

While luxury and blings are definitely perks, superficial material comfort isn't your main priority in love. All you desire is a soul partner who understands you, who is sensitive to your feelings, and who will be there by your side through your ups and downs in life.

Your Love Match: Personality Twin vs. Polar Opposite

Love Match: Your Twin
Like you, your partner is shy and introverted. He is reserved and doesn't trust people easily, which makes it difficult for him to make new friends. He also tends to dwell on his troubles and have a pessimistic outlook of life.

Love Match: Your Opposite
Your partner is methodical, sensible and down-to-earth. He is tactful, honest, kind and dependable - which makes him a warm-hearted person and a wonderful listener. He is also very caring toward his family.

Perfect Match:Your Personality Twin or Your Opposite?
There's no hard and fast rule on whether you'll be happiest paired with your personality twin or polar opposite.

Having a soul-mate (splitting image of your personality) may seem favourable for mutual participation in enjoyable activities, but it can also be a hazard in some ways: two introverts may become reclusive, two dreamers may never get a grip on the realities of life, and so on.

On the other hand, an opposites-attract relationship can evolve into a complete, complementary partnership, but it can also mean a lack of common-ground interests and hobbies.

You be the judge and follow your heart.

Draw A House..

http://www.drawahouse.com/takethetest/index.asp?street=7ded1478a7e71fd3b8554d4e0842c7b5

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. son.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

Quite true generally.. esp e last part... haha

sick sick sick..

Finally I'm feelin damn weak n sick.. felt as if i'm goin to faint anytime.. but duno whether to go to work.. have to depend on how do i feel tml morn.. been sneezing since i came back fr lunch.. wondered is it tat someone is cursing n swearin me.. which idiot is havin such deep hatred towards me tat he has to curse me so much?? haha.. i reli nd a long break.. away fr all noises, internal n external.. away to a place full of nice sceneries.. somewhere i can see lots of beautiful tings.. or rather a place i can forget all the unhappy tings..

Anyway.. always look on the bright side of life.. we lost some tings in the process of makin difficult decisions, but we oso gained some painful experiences in order to make up grow up.. isnt it?

The Taste of Lemongrass..

柠檬草的味道

他们猜我们後来有没有再见离席了才会晓得怀念
突然我记起你的脸那触动依然像昨天
对自己我终於也诚实了一点
是不是回忆就是淡淡柠檬草心酸里又有芳香的味道
曾以为你是全世界但那天已经好遥远
绕一圈我才发现我有更远地平线
我们都没错只是不适合我要的我现在才懂得
快乐是我的不是你给的寂寞要自己负责
毕竟用尽了力气也未必如愿总是要过去以後才了解
突然我记起你的脸爱不爱不过一念之间
绕一圈今天的我能和昨天面对面
我们都没错只是不适合亲爱的我当时不懂得
选择是我的不是你给的明天自己负责
给昨天的我一个拥抱曾经她不知如何是好
若我们再见我会微笑
谢谢你谢谢你我嚐过爱的好
我们都没错只是不适合我要的我现在才懂得
快乐是我的不是你给的寂寞要自己负责
我要的我现在才懂得选择是我的不是你给的
幸福要自己负责错过的请你把握

There's a story behind tis.. n the story was a true one.. find out fr me if u wan to noe wat is abt.. I see whether the author willing to share anot.. haha.. =)

男人,有时比女人痴情 ,所以请不要随意的伤害男人

每一个男人都是这样，他可以对每个女人说“我爱你”但他一辈子只会爱上一个女人，只有一个。女人需要的是一个关怀她，爱她，可以让她依靠，保护她一辈子的人，当她遇到一个男人时，爱的死去活来，山盟海誓。

因为种种原因的分开，她不会再记得他，或者说不会记得那么深刻。因为当她遇到一个更好的男人时，她会拿两个人来比较，她会觉得遇到更好的是她的幸运。

但男人不是这样，当他爱上一个女人，真真正正的爱，他不会在爱上任何一个人。

当这段感情失败后，他会把这段记忆放在心里，把这个女人放在心底。原来一个男人可以把很多女人放在心里，但一辈子只有一个女人可以在他心底。无论他以后会再相处再多的女人，他都会清楚的知道，自己最爱的是谁。无论以后他遇到的女人多么优秀，他也不会改变。

因为他心底的女人是他的支柱，他不会用她和任何一个人相比，他认为这种比较是愚蠢的，他一辈子只会爱她一个。放在心底的女人，永远的伤痕。男人都是爱面子的，也许他平时会活的很潇洒，但在一个人孤独的时候，他会放下所有的尊严，放声痛哭，思念唯一的她。

男人的爱一辈子只会付出一次，你得不到，因为你不是。

如果说一段不如意的感情分手是解脱，那么一个男人失败的真爱，男人的痴情，女人的多情,只有死才是终点。

Though this story is abt guy's devotion, but sometimes gal r doin the same, isnt it?

25/04/2006

Duno wat to put as title, so jus put today's date lor.. Haha.. Generally today is jus like any other day, kinda boring n waiting for the time to b up n knock off on time.. We r not born to work, isnt it? Enjoy abit more of ur life if can, cuz we only lived once..

Today came a lost gal.. she is so cute.. was cryin terribly when i saw her at the service counter.. I brought her in to the office, n started to calm her down.. but she continued cryin non stop.. n we could hardly understand anythin that was mumbling out of her mouth, except tt she was sayin "ah ma, ah ma"... we were not able to find out her name or her parents name, so i carried her out on e sellin area, hopin tat she wil recognise her grandma.. she was so tired from all e cryin, tat she slept on my shoulders.. so sweet.. haha.. den I brought her back to the office for her to sleep.. tat was wen she woke up n started smilin n laughin.. i gave her cheryl's to hug, and later the doll that was on e table.. I could see that she reli loved the doll.. den mdm teo passed her pen n paper to write, she was reli very obedient, she wrote her name n her grandma's name n IC.. she is called Angel.. she reli looked like one.. so pure and adorable.. but tat grandma was terrible.. left the gal on one side, n she went to buy 4D.. omg.. n the grandma looked so YOUNG!! such irresponsible grandma, how i wish i can give her a piece of my mind, moreover stil say those irresponsible words.. if the gal is my daughter, i wun leave her ard like tat.. Haha.. I reli loved kids alot.. they are so sweet n adorable.. how i wish i got one.. but abit crazy.. I'm not even attached, let alone gettin married n have one? Haiz.. jus dun hv luck in guys.. or rather i got lots of guy frens, jus tat i dun hv e feel for them.. Argh.. Angel is so angelic... *dreaming*

Let nature takes its path..

Yawnz..Bet I'l b goin to slp soon..meetin Mr. Chew, askin him when wil I b able to find some gold? Haha.. It had been some wks since I last update my blog.. Basically alot of things happened durin these period, but I tink I forgot liao.. Unhappy tings r meant to b forgotten, isnt it? E desire of seekin love isnt tt great le ba, mayb I had learnt to b stronger, n able to suppress wat my sub conscious mind had been doin, by cheatin me to tink of e sad tings.. I slipped into slight craziness for a few days, but I'm ok nw, cuz I have a bunch of frens who were by my side, where they should b havin alot of bumps on their head, cuz I asked them to bang e wall as I was not able to get anytin into my mind then.. For bgr matters, like wat my fren says, I reli have to leave it to fate, no pt keep hopin for it.. Sometimes wen u yearned n desired for it, it die die wun come.. But wen u were abt to give up or had oredi given up, it'l jus knock into u.. So jus let nature takes its path.. Wat meant to b urs wil b urs, wat not meant to b urs, no pt keep cravin for it, cuz u'l nv get it no matter hw hard u tried.. Even if u r able to get it, u may end up to b e one sufferin or e other party (as in bgr) could b e one being manipulated by u.. So anybody who is readin this, I reli appreciate it and do stay happy! Wait for my next update..! haha.. =)

Another Week...

As usual, it had been a long time since I update this blog of mine.. During these few weeks, quite a number of things happened.. Let me recollect the things tat happened, startin from e most recent one..

Jus came back home abt 45 mins ago after walkin all the way home from BM with KT.. Along the way, we chatted alot of things as usual....work, friends, bgr n so on.. Reli enjoyed talkin with him, or rather he is someone who can reli tahan my nagginess.. Wondered how will my days like without someone like him in future..

Another favorite boy of mine gone again after Harry & ZL.. Wei Kok.. Haiz~ No one for me to eat his tofu liao.. Though I din get to know him long, but he has been a very gd companion of mine whenever I work e same shift as him, esp afternoon.. He will wait for me n accompany me to the bus stop, talkin lots of craps along the way.. n durin the days tat I was very down, he had been quite supportive of me, though he seemed so heck care.. Sometimes the way he talked n his thinkin, doesnt seemed to me that he is only 17.. He will be another person I will reli miss after Harry n ZL.. I reli appreciate his support n accompaniment all these days..

Went back to bendemeer sec yest with Michelle.. Not much changes in the school, but rather the changes in the teachers.. They have reli aged alot since the last time we went back to visit them.. Time reli flies, it had been 6 yrs since we graduated from there.. As usual, I din do much of the talkin, stil as quiet jus like last time.. Mayb I always talkative at the wrong time.. Haha..

It's gettin late n my eyes are getting smaller n smaller.. Will update again when I got e time n mood.. Good Nitez!

Did You Know??

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:

I love you, Sorry and help me

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves? Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself, if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned, and you know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two-fold.

no subject

Yest went out with my best pal for dinner, n shun bian tell her all my things.. Tink she's e only one who has e full content of wat was I goin thru all along.. Or rather we r similar in some ways ba.. Last time she was e one who was sufferin, n now it's my turn.. Our roles switched.. Reli have to thank her alot all these days, she was with me thru e ups n downs.. but in e end, tink she failed jus like I failed in consoling her back then.. Let me see, she took almost a yr before she gave up on him n somehow back to normal, will I be usin tat long to do e same too? Pray hard tat I'll be takin a shorter time than her.. Been finding consolation fr frens, hopin tat I can clear my mind faster n go back to e happy go lucky me soon..

Today is my offday, duno wat can I do leh.. See how ba.. Mayb I'll go wandering on e streets again ba.. I prefer loneliness or mayb I'm used to it all these yrs.. I looked very happy-go-lucky on e surface, but deep down in my heart, it is very dark....so dark tat I oso gotten a shock at it....I craved for warmth, love n concern... No one will be able to understand wat r e probs tat i had been thru bcuz 家家有本难念的经, everyone oso have their own kind of probs.. We were trained to be numbed at e probs tat we faced, n see n treat life simply.. But we were also forced to grow up rapidly n taught to tink alot further cuz we will have to plan ahead in case of emergencies.. For me, I reli feel like behavin like a child, something I have lost while I'm growing up.. But when I behaved like a child, most of e time wat I received was criticism n comments tat I was immatured.. n only wen i'm with ppl close to me, den I'll b able to do so.. friends have always been e biggest drive in my life as compared to my family, bcuz I found peace n serenity in them...thus some ppl r quite surprised tat how cum i can do so much for a fren, n they tot I liked tat person.. Haha.. but ppl will grow up one day, they will want to get involved in other things like go to some happening places, n oso get attached, which I chose to be alone wen I see them attached.. It's only until recently tat my frens keep askin me to get attached, dun get my inferiority or lack of self confidence delay it.. I oso tot it's time for me to find one.. but jus too bad, some happiness are short-lived.. I was once loved (or rather I felt I was), for a very short period of time, whereby i chose to give up in e end cuz I was totally a different person before n after, I din wan to give e other party too much pressure n probably he felt being tied down.. e withdrawal symptoms r terrible, n i've been tryin hard to divert it thru work or wat.. but lucky to say is that I din let this matter affect my work, mayb bcuz I'm back to singlehood n i'm able to think as a single individual...able to see things clearly again... It's only after work or when I'm alone den I'll start thinkin again.. Flashes of the memories jus pop up n I felt a tinge somewhere.. Mayb I had committed too much in it, n now I wan to withdraw fr it, it reli need to take a lot of efforts n time to do so ba.. Tink e other party oso gotten a shock ba.. or rather he din expect tat I committed so much ba.. Jus a wild guess.. My trait again...tink too much...I loved thinkin cuz it makes ur mind turn, but it oso make ur mind strain..n create unneccessary stress fr it... Alot of things are avoidable, jus tat ppl like to tink too much, n when things doesnt turn out their way, they will get very frustrated..n it's only tat wen they cleared their mind, den they realised tat e fault doesnt lies with anyone, but themselves.. In the whole process, i felt tat I had lost 2 frens, but I duno whether is it true or is it tat I tink too much again?

有的事情一旦错过

就不会再回到你的身边

我现在真的明白这句话的意思了

现在已经太晚了

我只有等待，因为我不想再伤心了

让时间来冲淡这一切

让时间来带走这一切

(extract fr somewhere over e internet)

Found that this entry is kinda long.. It's time to end it liao.. Let me end it with a song I liked very much recently..

彩虹天堂 - 刘耕宏

我不知不觉 又徘徊在从前

秋风悄悄的呼唤 听来尽是孤单

落叶的期盼 片片左右为难

心走寂寞攀 跟著飘进黑暗

我不闻不问 也许好过一点

被遗憾关在房间 挣扎只是拖延

无望的空谈 一声声的轻叹

回忆扯不断 怎麼摆脱纠缠

找不到方向 往彩虹天堂

有你说的爱 在用幸福触摸忧伤

两个人 相守直到白发苍苍

自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光

找不到方向 往彩虹天堂

有你说的爱 在用幸福触摸忧伤

两个人 相守直到白发苍苍

自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光 有你在我身旁

Back to normal...

Generally things have been back to normal n I'm glad that I'm more or less back to my old self.. I was missin my old self so much for e past 1 wk or so.. Anyway, let e past remained as e past, n I shall continue from it again.. In the period of 2 weeks, I have lost some things, but in return I oso gained some things.. Somehow I lost a few frens, but in return I got to noe another grp of my frens better, thus resulting in a closer bond ba.. I reli appreciate that they made e efforts to cheer me up, preventing me to think wildly n get more upset from it.. Haha.. Happiness is e cure for all illnesses.. Been sick for e past 1 wk or so, so it's time for me to get happy again to fight against these irritating illnesses.. Haha.. Gotta go n get prepared for my work liao, if not late again... Hahaha.. Ciao!

Another Sad Week...

Harry finally left BM liao.. Sad ar~ It had been some time since I got so upset liao, the last time was the time where Sunny they all left.. Harry waited for me to come to work on Sat morn, before biddin goodbye to us.. I stil remember tat I was still naggin at him when he was makin his rounds at Haba.. Time reli flies, his 3 mths with us passed by so fast, n it's reli time for him to leave.. No more guys for me to su ku, sa jiao n hug liao after he and Zhilong left.. Those happy days will now become a memory, a beautiful memory tat is to be kept till e day we r not in this world.. I might be feelin super nostalgic n emotional now, but I'm reli statin the facts..

Tat day, I accompanied him to make his purchase, biddin goodbye to Ivan n Dewei, den I followed him behind, where I reli cant control my tears.. I stopped before the overhead bridge, n see him walkin over to e other side, but while he was walkin, I called out for him, he din turn back.. At tat pt of time, I was thinkin mayb I should give him a hug before I regretted.. I ran after him jus to "demand" a hug from him.. It may looked so stupid, but I felt better.. His eyes were red too.. Both of us were so sad..

I reli missed these 2 guys, my buddies because they reli helped me alot.. and I stil got lots of Coffee to treat them back.. All those words like "keep in touch" are lies.. I used to think we will definitely keep in touch, in the end... as time goes one.. we became hi-bye frens till no contact at all.. So now I only believed in creatin as much events to make this frenship as memorable as I can, before it reli expire..

"Harry & Zhilong --- Best Ah Boy & Ah Di in BM (Jun 05 - Jan 06)"

This CNY reli sucks, partly bcuz e ppl get lesser, n I had fallen ill too... Sianz ar~ First day jus went to relative house n sit for 3 hrs, watchin DVDs.. Den wan to go out oso no place to go.. Den second day, due to fallen sick, cant go to anywhere too.. Haiz~

I suddenly have the urge to find a bf, at least my holidays wun be tat bored ba.. But jus too bad, with my character n pattern, I think guys will run away after seein me.. except for my gd frens la.. Haha.. Mayb i'm not young anymore, goin to 22 liao, felt tat it's reli time for me (even bk said so) to find someone I liked n liked me, before I grow any more older, than it will be too late for me to settle down.. At the same time, mayb i will reli find the motivation to slim down ba, n not kept stuckin at this pt.. No matter wat way I tried, e weight doesnt seemed to move leh.. instead it moved up.. Must reli find something to do something abt it..

When will I find my true love?

e someone I've been waitin or e someone who's willin to accept me?

..san..的主题曲

暧昧

暧昧让人受尽委屈

找不到相爱的证据

何时该前进 何时该放弃

连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里

毕竟有些事不可以

超过了友情 还得不到爱情

远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣

想太多 是我还是你

我很不服气 也开始怀疑

眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈

找不到相爱的证据

何时该前进 何时该放弃

连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心

直到等待失去意义

无奈我和你 写不出结局

放遗憾的美丽 停在这里

Am I thinkin too much or am I really stucked in this kind of situation? I have no answer for this, but jus find tat if there's such a case, this is the best song to describe the whole situation now... Should I keep holding on to it or give up.. I duno.. Let nature takes its course.. Hahaha..

How do you tell if a guy likes you?

How to know when a guy likes you

Here's how to know if some one likes you: 1. Keep an eye on how many times you catch her/him staring at you. 2. Take notice of whether s/he smiles at you a lot. 3. Look for whether s/he focuses on you in a crowd. 4. Observe if s/he has suddenly taken more interest in your friends. 5. Pay attention to any significan't changes in her/his behavior toward you recently. 6. Start showing her/him a bit more interest and see how they respond. 7. Have a friend talk to her/him or one of her/his friends about you. 8. Ask, '[name], are you interested in me?' Tips: Hopefully you will not have to use steps 7 or 8, but if you're having difficulty reading her/him, these steps are your last resort! Remember, this is not an exact science, and it may take a few mistakes to perfect your technique.

The easiest way to tell (for anyone) is to just take an innocent step into their personal space. If they aren't interested then they will step away. If they are interested then they will set closer boundries for you and will therefore not mind your closer-than-normal presense.

One of the signs that a boy likes you is when he always teases you or makes fun/jokes.

He seems to find reasons to be with or near you. He may come up with what you think are lame or legit reasons to speak to you, call you, ask something. Try watching if he looks into your eyes or at least eye contact when he talks to you. Does he find ways to be closer to your body, near you, sit close or on the same side of the room as you? Does he talk to you instead of at you? Does he want your opinion? Cares what you have to say? Does he seem to be around you often, when he can? Does his face lighten up or seem to go from stress to unstressed when you walk in or say hello? A guy may not be obvious about it either, especially if he's shy, or maybe a little unsure of himself, which doesn't mean he's a loser at all but probably warmer from with in or more depth to him, more sensitive.

Boys might not tell you directly, but they may tell someone. Or perhaps when you are not around but your friend is there he will ask for you.

You will know if a guy likes you because he will not hesitate to make eye-contact; he will either stare if he thinks you won't notice or hold your gaze when you catch him in the act (if he has a lot of confidence). If a guy is interested, he will also go out of his way to be as near you as possible without being obvious. Of course, the rules don't apply to all men, but generally, if he likes you, you WILL know it, without a doubt.

I'm a guy and I think it depends, and different guys are different. Eye contact and attention isn't always the best way to tell. If a guy is shy he may get intimidated by girls he likes and actually make less eye contact.

I'm a guy, and I find it real hard to let a girl know I like her. I try to be funny, I smile (because I can't help it), I try to be close to her, but I can't verbally let her, or anyone know. Many guys have the same problem.

I'm a guy. If a guy is into you, he will ask you out, or he'll most definitely go out with you when you ask him first. There are no exceptions to that rule, unless he was with someone else at the time and wants to be true to them. So unfortunately, if a guy does not go out with you when you ask him out, he does not like you.

Here are some of the signs: he acts distracted when he's around you and fumbles for things.

From the corner of your eye you think he is looking at you but when you look up he turns away abruptly and you think you are imagining things. He tries to like all the things you do. Your instinct tells you that he feels for you but your rational part says you are sure to be wrong.

I think you can tell if a guy likes you if he always looks at you, he always wants to see you smile, he doen't like it when other guys talk to you, he looks at you when you are doing something, he follows you places, he doesn't know how to act when he is with you.

A guy is interested in a girl if he says "yes" to things she asks him to do. Time is very valuable to a guy, and if he is obliging and generous with his time, a girl certainly has his attention. Especially if he's a busy guy, he'll make time for a girl if he likes you.

He will make you feel special. He will be romantic. He will not move too fast. He will consider your feelings and take things slow.

He will show off, sometimes on small things. (For example, my crush at the moment was drinking infront of me, but then stopped when I said it was uncool.)

I knew a guy who would try to embarass his friends when they were around me. He wanted to look funny and seem cooler than his friends.

Sometimes a guy who likes you can behave in a very confusing way and be hard to understand. It might make you wonder whether they like you or hate you.

Shy guys like me will most likely tell their friends. Some will be confused if you flirt with them because they have never had this happen before, so they don't know what to do. Most guys don't do things unless they know exactly what they are doing. Girls just confuse us.

A guy likes you if he: 1. Makes fun of you. 2. Has cute little nicknames for you. 3. Remembers everything you say, in the smallest most insignificant conversations. 4. Finds any excuse to touch you or sit next to you. 5. Talks and looks at you differently than other people. 6. Talks about you with your friends.

A confident guy is easier to read. He'll make eye contact. Shy guys can be very hard to read but there are some sure signs: They might be looking at you but if you look back then they'll quickly look away. He will always laugh at funny things you do. Don't get discouraged if he talks more to other girls. Shy guys are very attracted to outgoing girls, so don't be afraid to be outgoing! Here's what you can do: when you're in a group of people and he's there, ask to the group if anyone would like to go on a walk, or go do something with you. Be sure that it would be a two person activity. If the guy you like agrees, then this is good. You can guarantee you'll have a good conversation with him if you ask a lot of questions. Be sure to tell him if you have soemthing in common.

Confident men who aren't afraid to stare at you and ask you out may just want you for the sex.

Sometimes a guy will pretend to flirt with other girls in your presence, to make you jealous.

I tend to like shy guys, so it may be hard to read them at first. But, once they open up, they give you their confidence completely. I find that they will: 1. Make eye contact with you, then look away when your eyes meet. 2. Always be willing to help you our or do you favors (like rides home, or physical work). 3. Will always look for you in a crowd, then when he finds you will act like he doesn't see you. 4. Will laugh at all your jokes/will try to make you laugh. 5. Talks to his friends about you. 6. Mentions activities that you are interested in so there is a chance for you two to do them together. 7. Will always find a reason to talk to you or touch you in any way. 8. Pokes fun at you, but in a nice way (unless he is very young and immature). 9. Seems genuinely interested in what you have to say. 10. Remembers little things that you've talked about before a long time ago, and brings them up in conversations to let you kjnow that he remembered. 11. He will always stare at you, and your friends may notice it too. 12. When you are talking with him and your friends, he will only comment on something that you say, or will look at you whenever he speaks. I hope that these help, but remember, you can't always rely on physical things. I think that most of all it is a feeling. If he likes you, your instinct tells you. Go with your gut. Don't let your logic tell you any different.

I highly recommend the new book: "He's just not that into you." It is so right on about how to tell if a guy likes you! :) Actually, the first rule of thumb is that a guy will ask you out if he likes you. To get him comfortable enough to do that, all you have to do is smile and seem interested in him as a person (just in case he's the shy type).

A guy who likes you may tend to notice new things about you, and compliment you.

The truth is, most girls can tell if a guy likes them. If you get the feeling that he likes you, you're probably right.